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ChelDYSON(: - cas(Y). 15-16 soon boyss. woahh! LIVES FOR THE DRUNKEN MADNESS ;) my FAMILY are AMAZING iiLY/. Cat Head; my gorgeous big sister, shes always here for me when im down and i love her loads ♥. Sabs is amazing and she helps me through. Stacie, Becky, Kandise and the rest - myGORGEOUSgirls&guys(L)
ChelDYSON(: - cas(Y). 15-16 soon boyss. woahh! LIVES FOR THE DRUNKEN MADNESS ;) my FAMILY are AMAZING iiLY/. Cat Head; my gorgeous big sister, shes always here for me when im down and i love her loads ♥. Sabs is amazing and she helps me through. Stacie, Becky, Kandise and the rest - myGORGEOUSgirls&guys(L)
He took his last breath, no-one expected his death. inside my heart broke, all the crying made me choke. i always wonder why?, was he living a lie? when he left a part of me left too, i dont know what to do. i wish i could make him come back, my minds just all black. ill never forget him, he never made me feel dim. the memories we had were great, he was such a good mate. dean i miss you, and ill always love you too. RIP Dean Scott Booth x
He took his last breath, no-one expected his death. inside my heart broke, all the crying made me choke.
I am so very proud of u 4 going so many days cut free! I am even more proud that u did not let 1 set back hinder your progress. Most of all u should b so PROUD of yourself;) I am glad 2 hear u have been spending x w/ your friends. I know that time does not heal all wounds but w/ each day it does make life a lot more bearable. I feel your pain & although it doesn't seem possible I do promise it gets easier. My BFF & her boyfriend (whom I was also friends w/) were murdered by her ex-husband hrs b 4 their children, myself, my husband & son were going 2 have dinner @ her place where the murders took place only hrs earlier. I truly believe if we were all there then he would have killed us all. My friends had gun permits but that day their guns weren't of any help. I wondered 4 the longest x what could I have done? But we have 2 come 2 terms w/ the fact that there is nothing we could have done 2 have changed their destiny. So n honor of them we need 2 concentrate on educating others &
making our own destiny count. I've known people who have commited suicide. It is sad. But I believe it is an act of selfishness. U won't 4get but the days willl get easier. Best Wishes!
you're throwing it out right! Don't use it, you've come so far! *proud*
Thinking of you hunni. Read your recent journal entries... xxx
hug returned :) x
thanks :)
smoked for ages now. about 1-2 year. want to stop but its hard when people around you are doing it esp at school and my bm house. i cut down but now its just back to normal more or less. need to stop, me and mums skint. "/.
school stresses me out with some of the teachers esp when i try and am good in some lessons and i still get blame, really pisses me off & when im stressed in general and schools taking piss makes it worse.
iv self harmed for about 2 years now on and off. but the last year has been the worst"/ i first tried it about 3years ago. i cut on my arms and hips. my mum + school knows and a few close friends. thats about it really. i also sometimes burn myself, with hair dryers or kettle but not enough to blister.
i dont have a drink problem. but if im pissed off ill go out and get pissed sometimes but not often no more. only drink at weekends now. & tbh i think my mum used to have a bad drink problem over a year ago, and she used to be abusive sometimes verbally and physically but she isnt like that no more, just a few arguments.
i lost my grandad before i was born of cancer but i feel like i new him and miss him.. when i hear family who saw him with all these great memories it puts me down cos i could never experience any. also; my great grandma and grandad died a few years ago:(
some days im great, happy and having a laugh but lately when that happens some part on the day i will change and become depressed, some days i just wake up like it.
i wanna loose a bit of weight. my friends say i dont need to but there not gunna say i do are they? some days i look really fat asif iv got a baby bump, other days i look okay. whatever i do its no use
i dont have a eatin disorder. somedays i dont eat and i think im fat but thats it.
i havent been through this but when my mum and dad broke up when i was 6, it really affected me and after time i now dont see my dad :(
i havent been diagnosed with a sleeping disorder. but i just can never sleep and iv been like it since i was born. then when i do eventually get to sleep i can never get up"/ joined to get some advice
i havent been raped. but one of my close friends have & a few other friends.
99% of the time have backache. only 15 but it really does my head in and its always really bad, nothing i try seems to get it to stop.
read stuff obv(:
need to start eating healthy and less. bellys getting awful :(
i think i have depression tbh, i researched it on the internet and did some depressions quizzes, yeah i no they dont mean you have it but i have a lot of the symptoms of depression but i dont dare go see my doctor- im not strong enough.
i really want a baby tbh "/ and everyone around me, friends and just normal people i no, people at school etc are having them & makes me want one more :/
im in last year of school.. going to college but its stressing me cos i dont no what i want to do or anything & i have to decided in about 6months so i can try get into a college.
not college stress yet well sort of.. stressing over what to do at college next year but not here yet
try get fitter. loose weight esp on legs and belly.
trying to eat healthier.. cut out most of rubbish at home just when im not at home i cant really. but im gunna try :)
not been diagnosed with this.. when i do eventually get to sleep sti;l dont have much & end up falling asleep through day.
my grandad died of cancer & other family members. :(
when im in these certain moods i can get right paranoid :S
sometimes even if im with my friends or at school etc i can still feel lonely :/
i get so stressed easily especially when things happen at home or school.
my mate hanged himself 15/16th september :(