WolfAngle's Journal

thats it. no more inside of whats going on with kaz now. i was relying on her boyfriend to know whats going on an now she's gone and ended it with him as well. asking the same thing as she did with her other friends an i, to leave her alone for 94 days, make no contact, live as if she was never in our life, an i still dont know whats with this 94 days! according to jason (her boyfriend) she's braught day one sooner, instead of on the 3/7/2009 she is now having day one tomorrow on the 30/7/2009. why would she suddenly change her mind so soon? now we have no one on the know or inside who may at least understand or can give what they think might be wrong. jas is being stubborn an refuses to say what they spoke about. i believe he is making sure he remembers this day with his kindrid spirit. i like to think they are kindrid spirits, they certainly were made for each other. i'm sure he will talk about today eventually. i'm not so worried about him. he has my full trust. before you say "ask her parents", i have. they like the new kaz, the one who is going out an being social but the thing is, thats not kaz, kaz stays at home, kaz hates public well she tolerates but she wont go out if she does not need to. if she had her way she'd live in her bed  but she gets up because well she's one to get up at about 3 in the morning an stay awake till 1 the next morning. not go to bed at 10 an wake up at 6 an then go out for the day. she has no money so i have no idea what she is doing, jas was supplying her with some cash an paying here an there but now who knows. like i said before, her whole persona has changed. with friends an her boyfriend, she shy's away, turns defensive an is aggressive, savage an ruthless and i can promise you this is not her by any means, she is painfully shy, way to trusting, way to kind, over protective, loyal, she does not shy away, she's open, none agressive, none savage an certainly not ruthless. she's sweet an kind. but this!! THIS! well is just totally different. towards her family she is still the same just more out going an more happy. open to their ideas an wanting to do what the want, giving her parents time alone with each other. normally she does not care. she does but she makes very little effort. but suddenly its like she's swapped roles. with her friends an family. well maybe not swapped but certain things perhaps. but if you met her an then met again now you'd understand why this is strange.

this was the message that her boyfriend got after he sent her an email this afternoon. what do you make of it?

94 days, thats all i am asking from every. in those days i do not exist, never existed in your life. i am a mere ghost/reflection, nothing more, nothing else. after that, perhaps then. you have my reasons for those 94 days. cant say that they are all of my reasons but one is. forget about me for 94 days, thats all i am asking. forget about me, i'm your ghost, never existed. an you live your life, you  be you, you look after yourself. after those 94 days, perhaps...but then it might not be over by then but i'm giving it 94 days any way. if all goes to plan, then all good but if not then i have no idea. jas, i do love you, your my everything. you make me well me but at the moment its a loosing battle and your setting yourself up for the worst kind of hurt any human/boyfriend will experience. if you thought i was bad this afternoon then i can promise you that, that was tame, its nothing compared to whats going to happen if you stick around. i'm not leaving forever. i'm leaving for 94 days. you know why an thats all that matters now. please just listen to me this once. do as i ask. after the 94 days i'll make contact again saying i'm done. i promise but till then move on with your life. i never existed ever. please.