Journal

alright i am going to do a general update for every on here, ranging from friends and family and myself.

Myself: i am still in rehab from my accident. its all going very well thank you and each day that passes i cant wait to head home! its a pain that the EDS makes healing a lot longer but i am getting there slowly and cant wait till the day i head home. i'm so happy my dad got my laptop for me other wise i'd never get on! well i'm hardly on now  but i do get on to check up and that but not always for long.

Family: both my parents are going well. my dad is doing physio and he is doing very well  but we are worried about his work and if he will get the sack since they have cut his time in half. my mum is overly stressed about me because i am overly stressed about kazz (more on her later) but i cant help myself, i worry a great deal about a great best friend and i'm scared.

Friends: kate is upset because her boyfriend dumped her and i did warn her this was going to happen if she kept cheating on him but she said to me that he'd never found out that was till he walked in on her. poor guy. i feel sorry for him but i never knew him well enough. Jason is going splendid although he to is scared about kazz because of the other day and that.well he does love her and he swears she's his soul mate, lol. totally adorable. claudia is currently in Paris, how romantic!! but i am worried about her travelling all alone and that. she calls every week. she's going to Rome next once she gets bored of Paris, lol. she gets bored very fast, lol. Tim has gotten in to nationals for long jump and shot put so i am so very proud of him. 

Kazz: what to tell you about kazz, were to start. first sorry for talking about her often to the point it looks like i am obsessing over her. maybe i am but i'm scared out of my witts end. nothing i say or do seems to register in her head. she very different and of course i am worried about her! she's my bestie! one of the best friend you could ever have! she's very very loyal to you and cares a great deal about you and would move the whole world for youand she's protective of you, she bashed my boyfriend up once, lol. well as best as she could any way. dont think curt ever had a girl slap him in the face an challanged him like she did, lol. well consider she did say "you do that again an i'll use my nails on your jewls next time and i wont be so friendly!" it was so funny. curt is so protective of that as is most guys, lol. he never did it again, lol.but i am worried about her because she's in a really dark mind frame at the moment. dont let her journals fool you. she's very selective of what she tells people. even her closest friends dont know whats going on at the moment, like the ones she actually does talk to. there is only one who knows everything but there is no way i can talk to him unless he comes and see's me an i have to tell kazz i want to see him an she'll get weird on me again an completely close me up. jas is talking to alice seeing if she knows anything an she doesn't have a clue other then saying she looked like a mess. one of kazz's friend said that her abuser, master was with her on saturday night an took her off some were an that an came back an she looked happy but something made the guy stiffen up no idea what but he got violent towards her an her friend said she just cowered in the corner. an i know she never told that part in the journal she wrote.

thats my update for now. bye everyone!

rehab is going well. it hurts a great deal but its going well. i've stopped asking when i am leaving, lol. i'm getting on with life in general.

my family are doing well as well. dad is healing up nicely.  he got out of his cast an that so he's happy.

i was having hope that kazz was getting better, she sounded it and that but she seemed concerned about her secrete (i know what the secrete is, sorry kazz i never told you i knew but you were sleeping when it happened, thought you'd of figured it out by now). its something which really has hurt her a great deal. i come on today to do a quick check in and i see that kazz has gotten worse over night once again. i dont know what it involves and i dont think she will give me details but the basics. 

all the best everyone

Kar

i'm a total idiot, lol. i'm so worried about kazz that everytime i talk i meantion her in some way or another. i either call myself her or i talk about her, lol, totally forgetting who i am, lol. OMG thats so stupid of me. i am honestly sorry if i do that to anyone but i am worried about her and when i get worried i'll hold on to them till i know they are fine. so i'm sorry if that happens. please understand.

kar