lilmomsie's Journal

Ok so I was doing sooooo great for a couple of days and I'm not doing badly but I am having a little bit of a shakey day today.  It's OK though cause I know that it comes with the territory.  I'm just a little worried that the good feelings I was having was only due to the medication and now I may need to up the dosage.  I am praying that the skills I have learned so far have been helping me out and I suppose they have because I could have totally freaked out this morning but I kept giving myself the positive coping statements this morning and I have gotten through this much of the day pretty well.  The therapist wants me to start going out and going to the store and all but I'm having a hard time getting there.  I did go out one day, a couple of weeks ago, and it went really well.  I went to the bank and cashed some checks.  It was only the drive thru but you know I had to drive there and there was no one in line but I still had to sit there and wait while they cashed my checks.  It wasn't like I could drive off and have them mail it to me, right?  Anyway I did good that day.  I didn't panic at all.  I did feel nervous going there but I used my self talk tellling myself that it was only panic and it couldn't hurt me and that I had done this before and there was nothing there to hurt me.  I did it and I felt really good when I was done.  I wanted to go out again today but since I am a little shakey at home I am afraid to try.  But you know what I am going out anyway.  Even if i don't make it all the way to the store at least I will have gotten out a little driving around and it will give me a chance to practice my newly accquired skills.  If I panic I panic.  It won't hurt me it will just make me feel uncomfortable!!!!!