Journal

I had a really good weekend.  My hubby and my daughter's hubby had to work the whole weekend so my daughter and I hung out together.  On Saturday we went to the movies to see Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince.  It was a really good movie.  Unless you have read the book or at least seen the first five movies you might not really understand the whole thing so I only suggest that anybody who is a Harry Potter fan go see it.  It's really very good.   After that we went to a halloween store.  My baby girl is such a halloween fan.  She is even on a halloween website and she makes halloween decorations all year long.  After the halloween store we went grocery shopping.  My hubby and I usually do our grocery shopping together on Thrusday nights but this past Thursday we couldn't go because we had something else to do.  So my daughter went with me.  I'm not confident enough to go and get that much stuff by myself yet.  I'm working on it though.  On Sunday we went to church together then my daughter told me that she had to go to Walmart to get a few things.  Heck I had to get a few things from there too so we went to Walmart together.  So that's my play by play of my weekend.  It was fun though cause I love spending Mother/Daugther time with my little girl.  I wish my son would be willing to spend more time with me that way.  He's a good kid and he's lots of fun to hang out with too, if you can tie him down long enough. 

     Yesterday was Monday and I just hung out around the house and did  a few things.  I didn't get a chance to go out to the store or anything spectacular but I did get to listen to Week #6 of my Lucinda Bassett CD's and it was a good one about handling anger.  I used to be a much angrier person.  I used to let it out and inappropriatetly I must say as well.  Now I still get angry but I tend to hold it all inside.  I don't like conflict with anyone so I don't  fight with who ever has said or done something that has made me angry.  I just let it go.  That's not always a good thing.  I need to learn how to be more assertive so I can get things cleard up when we have a misunderstanding or whatever.  This CD is a beginning to helping me learn to be a little more assertive and to do it in the proper way.  Not just jumping in and screaming and yelling.  And it's showing me that there is a way to approach someone who has hurt me and let them know how I feel about it.  I think that this is going to be a good lesson to learn.  Hope I can do it.  I am also learning that somethings aren't worth getting angry over.  Oh well got things to do now so I will write more later.  Bye

I didn't get a chance to write on Friday but I have to add this to my list of accomplishments.  Hubby wanted me to go to the store to get him some beer. Well that was my mission for the day.  On the way there I reaized that we also needed to go and get his blood pressure pills from the Walmart Pharmacy.  Walmart is on the way to the grocery so I decided at the last minute that I was going to Walmart to get his pills.  I had to park a little further than I usually do and in a different spot but it was OK.  I went in and I couldn't believe that I was there by myself.  I was trying not to think about it too much.  I got to the pharmacy and I had already told myself that if it was too crowded (which it usually is) that I was going to leave.  I got in line and there were only two other people in line besides the two that were already being waited on, so I had to wait a few minutes but I did it.  I made a little bit of a fool of myself trying to talk to the cashier stammering and just saying the wrong thing before I was able to find  word that I was looking for at one point and she was looking at me like I was crazy but you know what?  I don't care!  I was actually laughing at myself as I was leaving but I was so happy that I did it.  True I was a little shaky but that is the name of the game, right?  I can hardly wait till I get to the point that I don't even think about it anymore.  After Walmart I felt like I could conquer the world so going to the grocery was a cinch.  Yeah there are groceries in Walmart and I could have done all my shopping in there but I wasn't ready for that yet since Walmart is a great deal bigger than the grocery store is.  While I was in the grocery store I not only bought the beer that I went there for, I also picked up one item that I had remembered seeing on sale in the ad and a few other things as well including a small container of ice cream for myself as a reward.  I did good and I'm happy!