Journal

Well, a little time has gone by, and lo and behold! the remedy that worked the best was stumbled on by accident and frustration.  Was sitting on the toilet, as usual, reaching down for my suppositories, and saw a jar of Vaseline.  I thought, hmm, maybe this might help, because nothing else is.  I used it, carefully of course, and as the days went by, the burning and aching began to subside.  Something so simple became so effective.  Wish I could get my money back on all the fancy hemorrhoidal preparations (no pun intended) that I'd gotten.  Oh well.  Wistful smiles.  It's how the world goes, sometimes.  Also, I've recently been diagnosed with ulcers, after being rushed to the hospital with chest pains.  I'm wondering if there's a correlation between the ulcers and the hemorrhoids?  I guess all that acid flying around in my upper digestive system, it could damage the lower end of it.  Captain Obvious salutes.  Have a good day.

Well, it's morning here and here I sit, journalling about my anus, again.  Something is wrong with this picture.  A little opening in the bottom of my body has taken on a life of its own, with the horrendous pain a regular feature in my life.  I've tried so many things, the Preparation H, the creams and gels, the stool softner (does work somewhat), and the Phillips Colon Health (which made my stomach cramp and my poo feel like gravel).  I ate yogurt, which seemed to make the situation worse.  Then, I found out Prep H interacts with my Effexor, so I've had to stop using the suppositories.   As I sit here, the devils are burning.  I've complained so much to my family about my pain that they just roll their eyes now when I bring it up.  So, I walk around in my own private hell, well, until now that is.  I can at least vent here and read the posts by others living this way, too. I do find some comfort in that.  I'm grateful to have found this support group.