Failed
June 24, 2009 1:55pm
I cut. Last night. Night before. Not too much. Not too bad. Yet I gave in. I'm just tired. I don't feel right. I'm sick. Sick of myself.
Goal Completed on May 25, 09
Rhith 
1:05am, September 29, 2009
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Harder
June 11, 2009 4:12pm
It has been 25 days since I last cut/scratched.
It's getting a lot harder. At first it was easy...but now...
I become alot more angry at …
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Close Self-Injury
Ever since my grandfather passed away I became depressed. Which led me to start harming myself. It's been about six years. I have been off and on with it...but now it seems to be getting worse.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- It worked for a bit but I fell back into things. Doctor didn't really help...he talked mostly and never called when he said he would. Due to insurance reasons I stopped going.
- Red Marker Considering
- Rubber Bands Not Working
- Squeezing Ice Not Working
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- When able to 'vent' be it in a journal by my bedside or to someone else. It seems to calm me down.
Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a RelativeLost my grandpa at age 10 to lung cancer and it hit me hard. Led me to depression and self-harm.
Treatments
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- Helps me calm down a bit. Harder to cry in private now that I share a room with my sister.
- Getting Angry Not Working
- Throwing/hitting things doesn't help at all. Leads me to harm myself.
- Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Remembering Somewhat Helpful
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
Open Environmental Allergies
Type of allergy: OtherI've had severe allergies my whole life. I've tried pretty much every medicine out there...it would work for a bit then stop. I went to allergist and I'm allergic to cats/dogs, trees/grass/flowers, dust, and many other things.
Treatments
- Allegra Not Working
- Allergy Shots Considering
- The doctor never prescribed any shots for me.
- Clarinex Not Working
- Flonase Not Working
- Nasal Irrigation Not Working
- Nasonex Not Working
- Sudafed Not Working
- Zyrtec Not Working
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionAfter the loss of my grandpa I became depressed. It became worse over time, to where I harm myself.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- It helped a bit. Yet I fall back into the old routine. And for insurance purposes I can't go back.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- Writing a story. Or about how I feel. Helps sometimes.
Open Anxiety
I'm out of college and now searching for a job. Problem is I never had a job before. So I'm scared as to what people will think. I have had breakdowns...where either my heart rate speeds up or slows down. Crying like mad. Losing my breath. It has happened more than once to me.
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Not Working
- I have tried a few but haven't worked for me.
- Positive Thinking Considering
- I really need to try this...
