azanne's Journal

I HAD THOUGHT BY NOW I WOULD BE ON MY WAY TO SOME KIND OF TREATMENT ...HEP B/HEP C...IS THE LEAST OF MY WORRIES....>>>moving to Payson in March was a step foward forward but now seams such a waste...the weather there was so nice...but had to make the chioce of making it the valley for doctor appts or risk losing my truck....the drivr is only 90 mins but takes a 1/2 a tank of gas abd going back home was killing my truck...having to make all these decitions while I am feeling so crappy...all I want to do is sleep..this headache I have all the time is unbareable...when for BRAIN MRI AND CANT WAIT TO GET RESULTS...ANSWERS OF THAT TUMOR REMOVED FROM MY NECK....my liver doctor ran alot of blood test and tumor marker test came back abnormal........I HAVE BEEN SICK EVER SINCE THAT SURGERY....

I LOVE MY CAT CORKY ...SHE IS ALL I HAVE...HAD TO LEAVE HER UP IN PAYSON...ITS KILLING ME...DONT HAVE THE GAS TO GO GET HER AND EVEN IF I DID   ... NOWHERE FOR HER TO BE..I AM XTAYING TEMPORARYLY IN A ROOM AT THE LTTLE GIRL I USE TO BE A NANNIE TOO...SHE HAS TO CATS ABD A DOG ALREADY...THEY DONT MIX....DOG CHEWS UP EVERYTHING AND SHE CANT HANDEJ THE DOGS BARKING ALL THE TIME AND PUTS HIM IN LAUNDRY FOOM SO THE CATS ARE BLOCKED FROM THEIR DIYYT BOX....its such a mess...being sick ...making all these changes just to get medical attention...WISH I WOULD JUST DIE AND BE DONE WITH IT...ALL I HAVE LEFT NOW IS MY TRUCK AND THE HEAT HERE IN QUEENCREEK WILL KILL IT SOON...THEN LIFE WILL BE DONE FOR ME...ALL I WORKED SO HARD TO HAVE.....WENT IN A BIG CIRCLE...XHOULD OF LEFT THIS GOD FORSAKED PLACE...ARIZONA!