azanne's Journal

AS I SIT HERE REALIZING  ...RE READING MY ENTRIES,,,OH BOY...I AM TURNING INTO A BABBLING IDIOT,,,my poor friends!!!I do care deeply about you all and KNOW WE ALL ARE IN THIS SAME BOAT....so lets put me out on the dingy boat and with long enough rope to be pulled back in WHEN I STOP HANGING ONTO ALL TIS NEGITIVE CRAP BY MY SURROUNDING...on thing I thought I learned...got to go down this road any way and DOING IT KICKEN AND SCREAMING ABOUT THE IN JUSTICE.....makes everybody miserable and I LOVE YOU, MY FRIENDS,,,WE ARE HERE TO GIVE OUR POSITIVE JOURNEY AND YES WE ALL HAVE SET BACKS...OBSTICALS....I do appologize dearly!!!

SOMETIMES ITS HARD TO LOOK OUT THE FISH BOWL..SWIMMING IN MY OWN CRAP...SO LETS DO THIS,,,,(SMILE)  IF YOU SEE ME GOING INTO THAT FISHBOWL AGAIN,(I SEEN IT THIS TIME,,,BUT IF I DONT???? pleaseeeeeeeeee SAY ..."ANNE TO THE DINGY...TIME OUT TIME!!!" I CAN TAKE THAT LOVING HINT AND OFF TO THE DINGY I WILL GO,,,,I will understand and THE THOUGHT OF LOSING YOU ALL IS MORE GREATER then my emotions on my sleave!!!  That part I have never liked about my self but GOOD THING GOD HAS TAUGHT ME NEVER TO HOLD AGAINST ANYONE OF THEIR IDEALS AND THOUGHTS...EVEN WHEN THEY CLASH WITH MINE....older I get ...the more HUMBLE I get,,,realizing everyone is right...CANT HEAR AND LEARN IF I AM ALWAYS YELLING...CAN LEARN SH*T IF MY YAP IS A yapppppping!

SOOO I WILL DO IT FIRST...PUSH MYSELF IN THE dingy....YELLING IN THE WIND TIME...TILL THAT PHASE PASSES AND I CAN BE THAT COMPASSIONATE ,FRIEND A FRIEND WOULD LOVE TO HAVE!!! HUGS AND DEEP LOVE FOR YOU ALL( no worries...I am still here...just being more of a "we" and not about ME...) I read all your entries and thank you all FOR PUTTING UP WITH MY KICKING AND SCREAMING....it says that a person stops maturing at the age you started using...so DANG GUYS...I AM ONLY 9....YIKES....GOT 36 YEARS ALMOST OF NO GROWING UP TIME... I WILL CATCH UP ONE DAY...thats my POSITIVE NOTE TODAY!!!