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hippylu
Female, 17, CO
"hello its me"
12:04pm, August 6, 2009

  • About Me

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    hippylu

    Female, 17
    CO, USA
    Member since March 30

    • About Me

      I'm just a 17 year old, trying to survive high school intact

      I'm just a 17 year old, trying to survive high school intact

    • Interests

      reading writing laughing watching movies

      reading writing laughing watching movies

  • Recent Activity

    Recently:

    • 3 hugs received, 2 hugs given

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    Saturday

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  • Journal

    • Journal Entry for May 1, 2009

      Mood May 1, 2009 12:10am

      I hate being the pity case

      I hate being hated

      I spend so much hating that I can't see anything

      I want to breathe

      I feel like I'm choking, on …

    • Journal Entry for April 27, 2009

      Mood April 27, 2009 12:55pm

      If its not one problem its another

      I can't live like this

      my mood swings are crazy and frightening

      I can't live

      being afraid of myself

      I can't …

    • 17 in 10 days

      Mood April 14, 2009 8:14pm

      17 in 10 days... and what have I become...how have I grown?

      an obsessive...pitiful, mound of waste

      a hollow shell

      a corpse leached of all …

    • time is torturous

      Mood April 5, 2009 7:29pm

      I watch the clock..move so freaking fast...and still I have not done anything I'm supposed to do. What is wrong with me? why  can't I …

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    • Rainbow

      From cheekygirl Wednesday

      hey how are you doing? im ok myself, sorry i took a nap so i was away from the computer.

      thanks alot, i love my quote too! it's the first quote i found that i really relate to and can learn from because i have always needed others' approval

    • I’m With You

      From Melly517 Wednesday

      No problem :) Are you feeling better today?

    • Hug

      From AGirlOnLifesRoad November 17

      Hey there how are you? :)

    • Hug

      From kikibeautiful November 16

      hugs:)

    • Rainbow

      From LetGoMyEggo November 12

      how are you today?

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  • Goals

    to make a friend

    Progress

    0 %

    Goal End Date is Jul 31, 09 116 days ago.
    Stop bingeing andstarving

    100%

    Goal Completed on May 1, 09

  • Support Groups

    • Close Depression - Teen

      I've been depressed for I don't know how long, probably 13. I'm 17 now. My family history is long and scary, riddled with mental illness. And I'm scared I'm going to turn into my father. I have meltdowns, almost every other day, and so my family has screamed and turned away from me. Its mostly about school, I can't deal with the stress...but that's another long story. I've been in and out of therapy since I was 6 years old, and its never worked.

      Treatments

      Art Not Working
      I can't draw..it makes me feel worse about myself, like I have no talents at all...I sometimes wish at night for hours I had some inherent fantastic talent that would make me worth somthing
      Meditation Considering
      I've tried meditation but I can't seem to get my mind to focus, I'm also doing yoga classes once a week (I just started)...this is the hardest thing I've tried..being alone in my mind.
      Music Somewhat Helpful
      A couple months ago, I would play my records and dance for hours every day....then school got in the way..and depression...I stopped doing everything. But it did make me feel better at the time.
      Pets Not Working
      I have a kitty, shes nice, but acts neurotic just like me. I've destroyed my cats mind by raising her as my own, she's just as insane/afraid as I am. I love her, but I figured out I have allergies so she can't stay in my room...my other pets have died, so that didn't help anything.
      Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
      this worked for me last year, I had about of month of happiness, but then because of my school situation it all came crashing down. I read self-helpy books all the time, it tends to work for about a day (the day I read it) but then it feels like my mind releases all the work I've been doing, or freaksout even more like a backlash.
      Psychotherapy Not Working
      I've been in and out of therapy since I was six, when I was little it helped me stop hitting people. But now, since I don't have any physical problems, its not working at all...in fact I feel like it exacerbates my problems.
      Support from Friends & Family Not Working
      My friends have supported me, but my family mostly just yells and is judgmental. But my friends don't know the worst of it, and I don't think I'll ever tell them
      Talking Not Working
      I vent to friends (the few I have), my mom...but I don't have many people to talk to...and it almost always makes me feel worse in the end, especially with my mom since we just fight afterward...always
      Writing Not Working
      I write all the time...but since my self-conciousness has leaked into every aspect of my life, I feel like every thing I write is horribly crappy, I end up getting exasperated...I don't understand because I used to write so well..but now its just a source of pain for me..of what I've lost

    • Close High School Stress

      I've had stess all my life...Latly it has been caused by school and perfectionism. I have intense breakdowns almost every other day and I have been missing days, I feel like I can't keep up...and in a way I don't ever want to.

      Treatments

      Psychotherapy Not Working
      I've been to therapy too many times to count...its never worked for me.
      Support from Friends & Family Not Working
      My mom recently tried to hospitalize me because I react so bad to stress latly...she's not very supportive, and I don't have many friends because I'm in a new school.

    • Open Teen Anxiety

      I've had social anxiety ever since I started Jr. High...and I tend to be anxious about everything, so much so that its started affecting my life in an extremeley detrimental fashion.

    • Open Acne

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    • Open Stress Management

      hippylu hasn’t entered any details for this support group.

    • Open Loneliness

      hippylu hasn’t entered any details for this support group.

    • Open College Stress

      going to college next year...dear god

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