JennyMia's Journal

Never have I sought to wonder

On the reason for a slip or blunder.

Wafting tears were merely blights.

I never dreamed they would haunt my nights.

Lord in Heaven, why am I askew?

A happy girl I once knew.

Yet now her days are swabbed in doubt,

Transforming her rainfall into drought.

Have I, mother, been so unfair,

Echoing the burdens I must bear?

Early I pled to erase my past,

Dreading the memories that will forever last.

Oh, how I trembled to witness the fights,

Waltzing through my dreams of delight.

Nothing counts but what has begun.

Thoughtless torment our lives have become.

Odorless and endless my days stretch on.

Suddenly I find my reality gone.

Leave me not in the hands of unknowing!

Everlasting winds seem to frigidly be blowing.

Eventually, I pray, my life will uprise,

Paving a street of sweet compromise.

Italy, England, all that exists!

Please, tell me, why I was offered this?

Raving and uproar I hear each day.

A wish, I wish, to push it away.

Your tears scar me each time they fall,

Trapping my strength against the wall.

Have you ever smiled with him;

Erasing the moments of continuous grim?

Liberty, please, catch my heart,

Or break down the tidal waves tearing me apart.

Restrain the chaos, I pray to the Lord.

Descend sweet Angel with your flaming sword.

May I ask thee this one request?

Yield this pain that swallows my zest.

Shadowing irony I create as a mask.

Ongoing strength I deftly clasp.

Utter restraint is the key to my breathing.

Lavishly attempting to ignore the seething.

Tiny rosebuds dance in my mind.

Offering the only comfort my tears can find.

Kneeling Angels I summon to protect.

Ebbing the fear I’ve come to expect.

Extreme ease they would offer my sleep.

Promising betterment to the battles I greet.