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DJDJ 
9:40pm, May 22, 2009
So I was doing so well with keeping my flare's under control and just out of nowhere WHAM!!! I am now experiencing worse symptoms than ever. I have tried everything in the book pretty much. It's like the pain gets so bad to where I am throwing up and crying on the floor. I just can't do that. So I go to the ER (No insurance) and they pretty much give me a bandaid and send me home with the usual 15 day cycle of prednisone and 500mg tabs of sulfasalazine along with like 20 or 30 percocets. Well I think I've been on all three of these medications like a billion times so I have built up a tollerance for them and their not as effective now. For instance just to get the pain to let up even a little I have to take like 6 or 7 percocet 5mg tabs. and that still only helps just a little. When I go to the ER they don't really judge me by my chief complaints but I have tattoo's and piercings so they think "Druggie" and treat me like a freakin drug addict. I HATE THAT!!! Just because there are so many drug seekers out there they ruin it for people really in need of help.
So what do I do?
I know I need a follow up doctor but without insurance that's seriously so hard. Especially on the bank acount! I need to just get the surgery or the remicade at this point. It's getting so bad to the point I have actually contemplated taking my own life because of it. The only real reason I have not done that is my son. I could never leave the little guy behind in this world alone.
So then the next step comes in because I hold so many things back, I end up getting a nervous breakdown. I feel bad for my girlfriend. She has to put up with me and my shitty health. She is a trooper though I'll tell you that much. But I have a feeling that isn't going to last too much longer. I keep her awake by tossing and turning and moaning in severe pain. Not only that but all the hospital visits too.
Long story short
This disease is ruining my life! it NEEDS to STOP!!! Before I lose my mind, Girlfriend, Son, Life!
I just don't know what to do anymore!
~~DJ~~
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Very sorry to hear about your flare. I know first hand how painful it can be. God bless you and I hope things get under control soon.
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Jason
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So sorry you are suffering. Are you feeling any better?
Does anything trigger a flare up?
Hope you feel better soon.
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