Michelle5's Journal

Well the pizza shop that my late husband had opened in Jan, has finally decided to have the Grand Opening which was decided before my DH passed away.  It will be tomorrow which when I was reminded I broke down.  The guys at the shop asked if when I came could I bring a pic of DH so that they could hang it in the lobby.  I am just still in shock as people have told me.  I cry at the drop of a hat.  I try not to go anywhere because of this because 2 times I broke down while out.  My friends I know feel bad for me and they will call but I just have nothing to say.  They are able to go on living their lives as I am stuck with knowing that the man that all my friends have said over and over wished that their DHs where like is not here and will never be here.  I am supposed to see a counselor tomorrow but do to the the ribbon cutting will have to reschedual.  I have no clue what to say to him but I guess it will come.  I mostly will talk about what I should do with Aubrey.  She is showing some signs that I know have to do with her dad not being around.  She has been getting up in the middle of the night and climbing into bed with me, she has been trying to bite people and pinching.  She is still loving and sweet but i just need advise on what her little head is going through.