Michelle5's Journal

Well the holidays are coming quick and though Santa has got Aubrey done and dada done he still has to work onthe other family members.  So this week I am hoping he will get his lazy butt in gear. 

My sister and my nephew are recovering slowly, it will be 3 weeks tomorrow and though my nephew is taking it better because he never was that close to his dad my sister on the other hand is still having a lot of trouble.  She is also have trouble at work seeing how that she is a nurse and was not able to save him.  She is having some PTSD.  THe family has been sticking by her and she will be moving back in with my parents to help save money seeing how she supported his habbits for the last 4 yrs.  She has also got to know Aubrey better though Aubrey is still not to sure of her which hurts her feelings.  We all tell her that she was not around her the past 11 months and so Aubrey needs time to get used to her.  I think that my sister is seeing that she really f'd up when it came to the family and leaving us for this guy.  She thought she would be able to help him kick his addiction and everything would be ok.  I still have a hard time feeling sorry that he is dead and I know that is wrong but he has done soooo much to our family that you could nto even began to imagin.  I also know my sister is know angel in this to.  I am just happy that the lord is giving me peace with my sister and helping me forgive her.  I also am seeing the hurt lifting from my parents to.  Which is the best gift I could ever get. 

We are now having game nights at my sisters house and started playng my nephews rock band which is so funny to see a bunch of 16, 30 and 40 yr old jammin out. I am not sure if we will ever be close the way we where before but it is a start. 

I hope everyone is enjoying the Holiday season.