Jim72's Journal

Hello my friends,

       I look back to the time when I joined DailyStrength.  I remember how scared of what I was going through.  Here I found the strength to get out and be able to live life with a new challenge.  I also seen that I was not alone with challenges many different challenges here and it made me see that I could get out and continue with my life.  I apreciate each and everyone on here and my heart goes out to each of you that continues to dig deep into there soule to walk through one more day.  I have to say you all have realy helped me and I cannot put into words how I realy feel.

     I have made realy close friends here.  I have also gained an online mom and a sister that I feel like I can say anything to her.  When she hurts I am there to lend a shoulder and a careing ear.  When I am hurting she returns the same back and I feel we have developed a relationship that will last through time.  It is amazing how many things we share in common and how we both look forward to talking to one another each and every day. 

      I am scheduled the 23 rd of this month to see the uroligist one more time.  I am a person that realy has fears of tests.  I am not just scared of pain but how upset I get,,,,and that I am scared that during this test if I get as closterfobic feeling that I always get I am  more worried that in trying to get out of that fearfull situation that I may hurt someone.  This bothers me more than anything the fear of what I may do just to get out of a situation that has me scared.  My indrocroneleoligist (i know i  just masacard that speeling of that word) has explained that he wants a bladder scan which is of course easy as falling of a log lol and he wants a scope of my bladder to assure that there is nothing physically wrong whith the bladder.  He is pretty confident in what is wrong which is neropothy.   My sissy has realy been encoraging me to have this test done as well as my best friends wife who works there.   aleisha said she is going to let the docter and the nurse know how nervouse I get during these visits and if all works out I can put this one last hurtal behinde me.

     Dailystrength thank you for being here and offering a way for frindships and careing to be passed across oceans and lands afar.  I care for each and every person here and wish them all the luck and careing in the world.  thank you all so very much for being here.