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Well been trying to build my life back for the last few years since my divore ..got a home got out of debt. Have had my fair share of ups and downs dating but have not given up trying. I am 41 no kids and alone..Just got news that I am going to have to have a radical abdomanal hystorectomy..I have a tumor that is 15 centemeters in my uterous another the size of an egg and a 6 centimeter one on my ovary..Dr is gutting me on December 7th..I will never have a family of my own..The man I have been seeing for some time has teenage daughters that want nothing to do with me..I am the first woman he has dated since his divorce so in there eye I am the other woman..Not my fault that they got divorced but still not to them they are kids..I met him a year after he got divorced . I should have waited another year to meet him it would have been easier..Anyway long story short I am dealing with the fact i will never have kids and t he kids in my life dont want anything to do with me..:Its a very hard pill to swallow..not to mention the fact that after the surgery i will have to be on hormone treatmentthe rest of my life..but at the moment the tumor is so big i look 4 months pregnant..i feel so unattractive and unloved..I hope my attitude gets better soon..I will be off work for 2 months and i have to pay taxes hope i can make ends due for a while..
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Went to the dr this week and learned that i will never have kids..I have a 14 cm tumor that needs to be taken out and given a hystorectomy..This was a tough pill to swallow being that i have never had children..I will never and never know what its like to have a child of my own..Time will heal bt its had i just watched the birth of my niece.. Took my walls down when my dad called me since i am single and need help after the surgery and my dad told me another call was coming in..I feel sometiimes I have been forgotten and disbanned by my family..Definatly shunned..
I hate that wish i never told them..I told them 5 days ago and they never called back..I am keeping my thougts and fears to myself from now on...
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oh and i also got a bad mamogram too so might be a double surgery..having alot on my plate at teh moment
skyifly