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Why is it so hard
To just get through this day?
My life is so screwed up.
I feel like running away.
My head feels like it's gonna burst.
It's hurting so bad.
I am so confused...
Why am I so sad?!
I've been thinking of running away.
But I don't think I could.
Things are just so hard right now.
But hey, maybe I should.
It would mean no more of this mess
And suffering like this.
I shouldn't be thinking this way.
These thoughts I should dismiss.
It isn't like I hate my parents.
They are as nice as they can be.
I don't even know what it is.
Maybe it's just me.
I hear the water calling.
Why don't I just give in?
I can't see it working out.
I'm never gonna win.
I'm walking down a long dark road
without knowing where to turn.
You guys make it sound so easy.
I guess from you I should learn.
But you don't understand.
For me it is so hard.
"Get Well" it says in your letters
And you cheap two dollar card.
You say I should just stop all of this.
Quit telling you all the lied.
Well, fine, then I will tell you.
I wish that I would die!
But my parents would be ashamed.
People would think it was their fault.
Like they didn't try to help me.
Or it would have come to a hault.
Why don't I just give in?
I can't see it working out.
I'm never gonna win.
I'm walking down a long dark road
without knowing where to turn.
You guys make it sound so easy.
I guess from you I should learn.
But you don't understand.
For me it is so hard.
"Get Well" it says in your letters
And you cheap two dollar card.
You say I should just stop all of this.
Quit telling you all the lied.
Well, fine, then I will tell you.
I wish that I would die!
But my parents would be ashamed.
People would think it was their fault.
Like they didn't try to help me.
Or it would have come to a hault.
I love to see the birds in the trees.
And to see the cool, gentle breeze.
I like being right here with you.
And knowing those words you say are true.
I love watching my cousin grow.
Through her, my actions will always show.
I love learning the ways of the Lord.
And now I know to follow his word.
I like seeing the tall tree on Christmas day.
And watching all the little one's play.
But sometimes I get depressed. I feel alone.
Somedays I say I'd rather be left on my own.
But really that's when I need you the most
Even though I say I don't want you close.
Just tell me I really have nothing to fear.
Or tell me that you will always be here.
It does mean alot-if you don't already know.
I usually don't let all these feelings show!
And to see the cool, gentle breeze.
I like being right here with you.
And knowing those words you say are true.
I love watching my cousin grow.
Through her, my actions will always show.
I love learning the ways of the Lord.
And now I know to follow his word.
I like seeing the tall tree on Christmas day.
And watching all the little one's play.
But sometimes I get depressed. I feel alone.
Somedays I say I'd rather be left on my own.
But really that's when I need you the most
Even though I say I don't want you close.
Just tell me I really have nothing to fear.
Or tell me that you will always be here.
It does mean alot-if you don't already know.
I usually don't let all these feelings show!
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