confusion
March 30, 2009 10:11pm
Why is it so hardTo just get through this day?My life is so screwed up.I feel like running away.My head feels like it's gonna burst.It's …
lf58813
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lf58813
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About Me
I have no children and still live at home with my parents so they can help me stay on my meds. I am a poet and have 8 poems published. I work full time at Kroger.
I have no children and still live at home with my parents so they can help me stay on my meds. I am a poet and have 8 poems published. I work full time at Kroger.
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Coming Out
March 30, 2009 10:09pm
I hear the water calling.Why don't I just give in?I can't see it working out.I'm never gonna win.I'm walking down a long dark …
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A Piece of Me
March 30, 2009 10:07pm
I love to see the birds in the trees.And to see the cool, gentle breeze.I like being right here with you.And knowing those words you say are true.I …
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March 30, 2009 10:05pm
I feel so hopeless and so tired.And I don't really know why.I don't know why I'm still hereI don't know why I even tryI've told …
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Close Self-Injury
I am 21 and I am bipolar, I self-injure, I have PSTD, and social anxiety disorder. I have cut, burned, broke bones, and hit myself since I was 11. Ten years later I'm still in the SAME boat.
Treatments
- Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- I was the only one in the group that ever showed up so it was usually one on one but it went well with just us.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- The counselor I have now talks more about herself than I do about what I need to tell her
- Red Marker Not Working
- Bad thing is I like the feel of the cut
- Rubber Bands Working / Worked
- People are always wondering why I have them on so I put some around my ankles but that doesn't hurt as much
- Squeezing Ice Not Working
- Can't always find ice laying around and it just does nothing for me
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Always feel like I'm in a pity party
- Tattoos Somewhat Helpful
- I go to my tattoo artist about once every month and he does a tiny but on one tattoo I have on my ankle its still very small and everyone loves it but it is getting to cost alot
- Cymbalta Somewhat Helpful
- I am on 60 mg in the morning. But if i dont take it at the same time everyday I am very jittery and it feels like my hands go numb and I have what I call brain shocks cause to me thats what it feels like
Close Sexual Abuse
My parents divorced when I was 2. My dad remarried. I now had 2 step sisters. That is when one of my step sister began molesting me. She made me touch her and I had to let her touch me and was told mom would die if I told. When I was six and she was 13 her boyfriend who was 17 raped me. When I went to prom I was drugged and raped. And also again by the same person at my graduation party.
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- I write poetry but hate it when people I know read or hear about my poems cause it brings back all the horrible memories
- Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Yea but I was the only one who would show up
- Leave Not Working
- It seams to follow me wherever I go
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- If their is somethig talking about a girl being molested or raped it always makes me cry
- Talking Not Working
- Always feels like a pity party and some don't believe that I was molested and raped 3 times
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