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July 18, 2009 7:45pm
My other half, the grumpy one, brought up the subject of living separately today! We have been looking at a property that is 30 acres that consists …
salsa68
11:38pm, May 3, 2009
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salsa68
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About Me
Hi. I am a stay at home Mum, I have 3 kids aged 14, 13 and 7 and I have been in a verbally/emotionally/financially abusive relationship (he is the kids' dad) for 16 and a half years. I have changed from a gullible young Mum into a cynical woman. I am studying beauty therapy from home (when I'm allowed to!) so I can hopefully work from home one day. My kids are my passion, though I am still a bit too bitter to be passionate about much. My friends and family are extremely important to me too.
Hi. I am a stay at home Mum, I have 3 kids aged 14, 13 and 7 and I have been in a verbally/emotionally/financially abusive relationship (he is the kids' dad) for 16 and a half years. I have changed from a gullible young Mum into a cynical woman. I am studying beauty therapy from home (when I'm allowed to!) so I can hopefully work from home one day. My kids are my passion, though I am still a bit too bitter to be passionate about much. My friends and family are extremely important to me too.
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now what do I do?
April 3, 2009 5:56pm
It's 8am on a saturday morning and I am sitting in bed, smoking....naughty :-)
I actually hate smoking! I have quit several times but always take …
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Journal Entry for April 1, 2009
April 1, 2009 8:52am
These are some poems I wrote in the earlier years of my abusive relationship; before I had been told that I was even in an abusive …
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Looking back...
March 25, 2009 10:10am
To me this is breaking news, because I feel I am starting to 'wake up'.
I have spent the last 16 and a half years of my life with an …
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thanks for the support
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Thanks so much for your encouragement. I look forward to the continuous growth in my life. It would not be sucessful without a DS friend like you.
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Hang in there :)
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Thank you for the support today. I really needed it. You are a sweetheart and many many many hugs to you!!
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Hope you had a lovely day despite the husband's call. xoxo Happy Mother's Day sweetie!
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Close Physical & Emotional Abuse
It started 16 and a half years ago. At first I accepted his gruff nature as shyness, then i accepted the many 'reasons' or excuses. Then i had my first baby to him and suddenly I became his property for good. Since the conception I think I spent the next 4 or more years crying EVERY day. I begged and I pleaded, I swore and stood up for myself, I pretended it was normal and tried to be happy, and then just I disappeared inside myself and accepted all he dished out. I HATED him!
Treatments
- Abuse Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- i went to a group for abused women. I was not hit so didn't think I had a right to be there, but they were supportive and helpful because I realised it was not my fault.
- Forgiveness Not Working
- I tried to forgive, I tried to move forward when he really seemed to be making an effort, but as soon as he lost it, just once, my wall came shooting back up and the fear crept back in. I can't trust him, I don't trust him.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- It was working, but he made me and the kids move interstate so i could no longer see her. Her (the psychologists) parting words to me were "Don't go, you're not ready!", she was right. Am going to start seeing another psychologist as of tomorrow.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- I talk about it all the time. I am lucky to have friends (and family) who have not dumped me. I have tried talking to him but nothing is ever resolved. He just LOVES the sound of his own voice and can monotonously talk for up to 6 hours, but though he apologises and admits he has a bad temper, he never stops his behaviour so its a waste of time.
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