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So, I'm up late again and I was just remembering that i read somewhere that for every one day spent manic...there are ten spent depressed.And i'm sooo not looking forward to crashing down.o-well,might as well enjoy the now.
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Wow...okay so alot has happened since I've been online.I have moved to a new state,had a major breakdown that landed me in the hospital for (unless i had a lapse in time----> 4 days...but turned out to be really good and i have ended up with some really good help which starts on the 24th of this month.
Also, right before I got to see my doc to tell him all that had been going on and he perscribed...Risperidone and Buspar.One for 10mg and the other for 15mg, but i don't know which one goes with which, cuz i couldn't fill them.But here in Oregan the health care system is treating me right!!! and i am so elated, that I may for the first time in my life, get all the right treatments underway, to get control of my life again!
I am still having bad sleep, but with all this new hope i'm just ever so busy happily irritating everyone else instead of them terribly irritating me. . . which is a good thing, and fun 4 me (he! he! he!)
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Good for you!
I wrote this 5/3/00
Through the entanglement
Of a confused madness.
A caotic mess of uncomfortable anxiety
Sweeps across my skin, like goosebumps.
Sending shivers up my spine
And through my mind.
Making me wonder
Why it is that I strive.
To be, or to do
To achieve, or to soothe.
Soothe that very thing inside.
That has tried, and tried
For so many nights has cried.
And now wants just to die.
What is it I can do?
To finally put an end to,
These repititious episodes.
The waves of worthlessness.
That infect me like a virus, yet
Like a disease continue to plague me.
Never to be cured, I'll always host
This parasite which feeds of me.
Off everything my heart and soul could need.
But taken consideration, and careful measures
Plenty of water and some sunlight;
I have to find a way to fool
Myself that I, can be like you.
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I remember the feeling...it is true, the higher you are, the harder you crash. I hope you will be okay and get through this :) I understand how it is.
Keysnia