pearl240's Journal

I started MTX almost two months ago, and I don't feel any progress at all.  I've had three terrible days since Friday night when I took my dose and have spent most of it in bed.  I tried doing my housework on Saturday and crashed by mid day.  I think that I may have put too much hope on the medication and wonder if after twelve years of seeing myself get worse, if I have gotten to the point of no return and nothing will help.  The feeling of being so fatigued that I just want to pass out, the pain all over and my eyes hurting day after day is getting hard to handle.  I love my family, but I hate for them to see me like this because I don't want to worry them, but I don't have the energy to do anything.   

Thanks for listening

Zeyda