Alvi's Journal

In Life there are times that we all feel different things. So many emotions we have that God has given us.....Right now I am facing many challenges. Doing my best not to lose Faith or Hope because I really won't get any where without the two.

I am so tired and weary right now. With my OCD brain and all that has taken place for the past two weeks I cannot seem to shut myself down. OH I will feel sleepy yet when I try to go to sleep my brain is in over drive. I am averging sleeping around 3 hrs or less in a 24 hr period. THe rest is spent thinking and playing over and over wondering what is going to happen to me in this situation that I don't have control of?

Right now I don't have the answers but I do know that God knows what the answer to this situation is.  This morning I was laying in bed around 3a.m. praying. I had just finished reading God's words then began to pray. I was asking God to help see me through all of this. All at once I heard plain as day BE STILL...I have no doubts that was God telling me to sit tight and quit fretting so much about this to set back and wait for the answer..Because even if I don't see a way out of this God I know that you know the way and if I will Be Still and listen and await for what God has in store for me...The Lord has blessed me with giving me people who love and care about me. For this I am truely thankful.

Even though I am so tired and weary and facing many trials and tribulations I am not alone in this..It sure helps just knowing that..

Lord thank you for allowing that small voice to reassure me and let me know I need to just Be Still and wait upon you..Lord continue to give me the strenght it takes to get through this..Take care of those who Love me and are trying so hard to help care for me. Give them strength and peace of mind. I ask this in Jesus most blessed name AMEN!