LaQuiLa's Journal

So I come back here on DS hoping to find some support after a year hiatus due to having a baby. I relapsed and am back on now.

I love how I added a friend I knew from before, and she deleted me the next day for not responding ASAP and not being on here enough.

Well with baby duties, driving my other 2 kids around, a house, jobs, etc etc. I wish I had time to be on here 24/7 but the reality is I don't. I can't. I have responsibilities. Yes, I have an illness. Yes, I need support - don't we all? So I come on here when I can - 2 days later I am friendless....yippee for me!

A year ago when I was on here I had 20+ friends that were supportive. Now, I'm hesitant to search people out and add them because if I don't respond right away they will take offence and delete me - how 'supportive' is that!? I cannot dedicate the greater part of my day to this...I go on at  night after the kids are in  bed, if I can.

I wish I was 22 again and was able to spend the majority of my day blogging and talking but I can't, I'm in my 30's with a family. I'm sick. Does it matter? Guess the reality is that people are people, even if they do belong to a 'support' community.

*my apologies to those who are true supportive friends on this site :)

Maybe this site isn't what it used to be. Because you're support 'friend' isn't on every day all day doesn't mean they aren't in need. Deleting them - what's the point of that? Wow that made me feel great!~

Maybe this place isn't for me. I need to reach out more, I know that. and I will....when I have time from my responsibilities.

Guess some people that don't have busy lives just don't get it.