mianutzy's Journal

My dr called tonight. I am now officially a diabetic. I am not surprised but frustrated. I had warn the drs that I had problems with my blood sugar years ago, and the drs said not to worry about it. Well... now it is here again.

Most of the meds I am on can raise blood sugar. Plus they have helped add on pounds. And when I try to lose... the weight doesn't want to come off. My body seems to be making me pay for the anorexic and bullemic behaviors I have done over the years. Now I am facing the decision about lap band surgery.

If I do get that surgery I will want to have the unfixed hernias fixed at the same time also. But to be honest I fear having the surgery only to end up in worse pain.

I am so tired of it all right now. Having pain all the time is bad enough... but having to deal with other issues on top of it is really hard.

The more severe the pain or illness, the more severe will be the necessary changes. These may involve breaking bad habits, or acquiring some new and better ones.
Peter McWilliams, Life 101