Journal

I had my cast taken off today..

So far I can already tell a difference (:

But where the screw in my big toe shows I have to have it taken out friday and a second pin put in it.

Well, the screw that is in my big toe is now showing :0

I peeled a big hunk of dead skin off, gross I know, but when it came off I see the head of the screw and a stitch sticking out.

My dr wasnt in so I saw the PA, and then he brought in the Dr that was on duty,

They said itd be fine til monday (thats when i see my actual dr) and that i was lucky that i didnt have to go to surgery and have my toe washed out,cause they may be a chance of infection, so i was put on antibiotics.

He said to be prepared for my dr to say that the screw will have to be taken out.

Soo yeah :/

Well I've had a pretty bad day, I just feel so useless and unwanted.

Ben always makes me feel like i'm not good enough for him,i feel like i'll never amount to his friend girls in massachusetts.

I feel like he always puts me second,everyone makes me feel that way though. I do whatever i can to make him happy,and yet he treats me so bad.

I just currently hate life right now