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8:07am, June 7, 2009
Im seriously pissed off with him today. We are supposed to be running a business together, but im doing most of it on my own. Today, at lunchtime, we had to go to the airport to pick up a customers car. I was supposed to drop him there to pick up the car, but he wouldnt get out of bed and told me he didnt give a shit. I had to spend money on a taxi to get there and drop the children at my mums. Now all ive got is 15 pound in my pocket which il need for tomorrow morn for another taxi if he doesnt get up again. I cant live like this anymore. I really wish i had the courage to ask him to leave right now.
Well i havent been on for a while coz ive been so busy, mainl y trying to get my head around my husband latest antics.
About 5 days ago he decided to detox one more time, at home, with no medication to help him at all. I knew deep down from the start it wasnt going to work, and i was right. He didnt even last 24 hours.
So now, hes using once a day, gradually lessening his usage daily, until he can handle it to try detoxing again.
I dont really know if hes telling me the truth or not, i still think hes using a bit more than he says he is.
So here i am once again, playing the waiting game, to see if it really works.
I know ive said recently that this is his last chance, because i have to put the children first now, but im not sure how long to give this time. I guess il just have to wait n see what happens over the next few days. Watch this space!
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Me and my husband are trying to run our own business, buts its just impossible trying to work with him. He doesnt get out of bed when he should and we end up being late for our customers. I just cant rely on him. I worry bout it every evening, whether hes gonna get up or not. Im seriously considering moving him out and moving my sister in so that i can just get on and do it myself and have someone look after children while i do it!
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as someone who did the "cutting down my dose at home" method a few times, i can tell you, your gut is right. YOU KNOW deep down what the deal is. hate to be the blackbird of bad tidings, but the sooner you get serious ad force some consequences, the sooner you get your family back. (there will probably be a few times where it "looks" like it's gone for good before you get there). i had to be a really desperate rat in a corner before i got serious about getting clean. good luck
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