slredma's Journal

Since October last year I havent done nothing but focus on trying to get better. I've went to some family gatherings but nothing out of the norm. I had tickets to see Kieth Urban and Taylor Swift and I thought at the last minute I wasnt going to go yesterday. My family said GO so I went. I  sat in handicap with my  mother in law since she cant walk stairs and it was awesome! It was a full house of course. I really just wanted to see Urban and he stayed longer since the croud was screammng  for long after wards. I had a lot of pain but it was worth it. I know in a couple weeks I'm going to be back to recovering again and i wont be able to get out for a couple weeks. I'm not looking forward to a laparotomy but he wants to explore better than with laparoscopy since he knew I had one before and my gyn didnt know what he was looking for. At least I know I have tried everything to try to avoid surgery with 2 ct scans and a complete mri that all came back unremarkable. I'm going to Wisconsin for the 4th. Some of my husbands family live there so we're staying with them for the weekend. I think I might be ready to relax one weekend after all this. It's the pain I'm afraid of not so much the surgery. It seems like my pain level has been short lately. That or I'm just tired of being in pain all the time and I just want to get back to a normal life before all this entered in my life.