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I have finally come to the realization that I hate my life. I don't hate me or my children, but I hate the position I have been put in. Nothing is the same anymore. Work sucks, homelife sucks, and just about everything else sucks.
The position I was put in has made life unbearable, yet I am trapped. Do I leave? Do I just start over? Do I try to get past it and move on?
The final realization is that any answers to my questions above will be wrong. I can not and will not forgive, but I do not want to torture my children by not being there.
How dare people we count on put us in this position. It is not o.k what they did, it was not a mistake, it was a choice. Those of us affected by their selfish decisions are the ones that bear the burden. I wish them all pain and have no sorrow for anything that occurs to them.
Fortunately, I have seen little glimmers of my oldself. When I am playing ice hockey or going to school or doing a project that makes me happy. At that time I don't feel for anyone or anything.
I think I would be better off finding someone new who I can start a life with, but that comes at a very high price. Anyone know anyone who wants to date a married man with 3 kids and potentially a nasty split HAHA? Maybe I could put this behind me and enjoy life again.
I just want to thank all of the cheaters in the world who ruined our lives and say that payback is generally two-fold and you desrve what you get.
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I am sorry that u have to go through this!
valeriev
rofl... I know what you mean, except its me with the three kids in my scenario
BetrayedAngel
I know what you mean too. I don't have small children but I do have three horses, four farm cats, two farm dogs and 34 acres to care for. That I might add the dumb ex will profit from when I sell.
So the cheating asshole just cut my alimony by half. It's not going to be a good next three years. I don't understand why we have to suffer for their choices.
trisha9054