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snowflack 
8:00pm, March 21, 2009
i have seen her again last night i dont think i have any love for her at all. i know thats not right,maybee theres something wrong with me.the woman i was looking at was not my daughter thats how it feels.and to be honest i dont wont her back,i could never ever trust her again.i feel free for the first time in years.and i am looking forward to the holidays for the first time in years.
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There aint NOTHING wrong with you hun! I toooootally get it! When my estranged son finally came over a month or so ago, it was like I was looking at an intruder...serious. As his wife sat feeling uncomfortable, their kids feeling shy, he was in the garage looking for his "stuff". I never told him I loved him or even attempted to hug him. Unlike me. But I just didn't "feel it". So, with these new "healthy" thoughts, and yes they are, let's enjoy the fricken holidays like we deserve!
Sawyer
As time goes on they become as strangerss (estranged). Don't feel bad, it is just a natural thing that happens. You decorate, buy some candles, trim the tree pretty, relax and just sit back and be good to yourself, stress is so unhealthy, I have sure found that out. Big hugs to you! Barb
Barbell
Mine is calling a couple times a day..walking across the street (he lives across from us) to watch the baseball game etc...as if nothing has happened over this past 1 1/2 year. I really don't look forward to talking with him..guess it gets a little better each time I do. But like you I don't really care if he is here or not..I ask myself too is there something wrong with me as my heart never melts for him anymore..I see a different person..although he is the same...but he is still with his gf so I guess I will continue to wait to see how long this lasts..at least this time i will be ready for the enstrangement... So is it us? Or is it us, just having enough of the bs and just don't want to try anymore? I think the way we feel is a good way to feel for our own sakes...Hang in there..Sincerey Coopy
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