learningtolove17's Journal

I spent the last 3 nights with Kellie. They were 3 amazing nights =]

On Monday night, she came over after work. We stayed up until about 5am lol. Then I woke up about noon and made us breakfast. I brought it up to the bedroom, woke her up, and we ate in bed. ^.^ I made homeade pancakes and didn't catch them on fire!!!!

Then Tuesday she stayed here until 7:00. Then came back at nine. At 11, we decided we wanted Taco Bell. ...So we drove over an hour to get them! Hehe. It was worth it. 

Then yesterday, she stayed till 4. And came back at midnight after work. 

This morning though, was and wasn't good. At 7, I heard her phone go off. Her mom was texting her. She was mad bc Kellie didn't go home last night, she came here instead. Long story short, her mom wanted to kick her out.

I don't know whats happening. I havent heard from her since she left at 12. My parents told her if she gets kicked out to come here, so I'm hoping she didn't. I mean she was working from 5 to 11... buts its 12:30 now. Idk.  She's probably just tired or something. I'm just kind of worried about her mom's threat from earlier. What if something happened?

Oh well. If she doesn't call by 1, I guess I'll go to bed. I was staying up to hear from her lol... I'm exhausted. I just hope she's okay. 

Th other part is her friend, Danielle moved in her house. I'm not too fond of Danielle.  Not because she's an ex... well, thats not the ENTIRE reason. I mean yeaaah I dont like the fact they were engaged, but to be honest thats not what my problem is. She has a girlfriend and I know they're in love, so no worries on that front. My main thing is the way Danielle acts. She calls herself God. She pretty much believes she can have whatever she wants whenever she wants, no matter what that means.

Back when Kellie and I first started dating, Danielle was threatening me. I lost over half my friends bc she made them choose between her and me. And they chose her.  And I know that means they weren't real friends in the first place, but... ugh. She just... I know it was hard for her when her relationship with Kellie ended. I know she blamed me. She had every right. Just like I have every right to blame her for what happened to me at school. 

And then what really got me is she asked Kellie for a face to face meeting with me. Alone. I said no, Kellie relayed that. Danielle got pissed off. I compromised and said I;d talk on the phone, then  maybe we could meet face to face. After all, the last thing I had heard was she wanted me dead.  So what did she do? She saw me and Kellie, got Kellie away from me, cornered me, and decided to talk. She KNEW I didnt want to. And she didnt respect that. At all. 

If she had, maybe we'd be at a healthier point. But again, she thinks shes God.  She calls Kellie at all hours of the night and early in the morning. She doesnt care if Kellie is asleep, even though she works late now. She doesnt care about anything but herself.

But at the same time, I know her friendship means a lot to Kellie. They've been through a lot of good times. Danielle has helped her with a lot. And for that, I will always be thankful. I will always respect for of her for what shes done for Kellie. 

I don't dislike her, but I don't like her either. I think Im just on neutral ground right now. I'm getting past eveything that happened. It just takes time, you know? I love the fact they're friends. Kellie needs friends, especially lately. I'm just not too crazy on the late night and early morning calls when Kellie is over at my house. I'm REALLY not. It pisses me off actually. Because if she doesnt answer, Danielle gets uber pissed and calls Kellie's mom and Kellie gets yelled at to no end. And if she leaves the phone on, it wakes me up and normally not her.

But hey, now that she lives there maybe that will stop. If not, Ill just ask Kellie to put the phone on vibrate. Then it can wake her up and not me lol. ^.^

Wow, long entry. And to think I only covered 1 out of 4 things thats bothering me. >.< Oops. Oh well.

Maybe another entry coming up haha!