I was born and raised in Hawaii. I'm also a very calm but shy person so I'm kind of lonely with little friend's no one to really open up to or hang out with. I have a secret life so the people around me don't know the true me. Because it's to risky for me to tell others most of all my family. So right now if anyone I know and who visits this site and is reading this information here on this site about me this is me so don't look down on me or hate me in real life this is who I really am. And I know I say hang in there a lot but for real hang in there I'm trying to myself one day at a time. I have depression, GAD = Generalized anxiety disorder and OCD.
I was born and raised in Hawaii. I'm also a very calm but shy person so I'm kind of lonely with little friend's no one to really open up to or hang out with. I have a secret life so the people around me don't know the true me. Because it's to risky for me to tell others most of all my family. So right now if anyone I know and who visits this site and is reading this information here on this site about me this is me so don't look down on me or hate me in real life this is who I really am. And I know
I like all types of Movies and TV shows and reality TV shows as long as they are good. I like Bike riding, I like Driving, I like taking pictures. I also like to answer people question's like here and give my opinion and support to try help if I can and to make friends online.
I like all types of Movies and TV shows and reality TV shows as long as they are good. I like Bike riding,
November 13, 2009 9:48am
I finally told and came out to my youngest sister I told her that I wanted to tell her something and this may shock you just like how I told my …
November 7, 2009 1:15am
I had to use most of my saved money for my plane trip bills.
I will have to start up saving again after my next plane trip I'm
going on in a week. …
October 3, 2009 8:25am
I'am good now at the moment but sometimes I'm very sad and depressed. I also wished I was dead at times. I hate living this type of life …
October 2, 2009 11:34am
Get more Fit and in shape goal update.
Went bike riding yesterday 10/1/09 and rode over 10 miles which is now the most I ever rode my
bike …
That's fantastic. Congratulations!
keep it up. im happy for u.
Thank you very much!
ok i do understand the situation
and to this day i cant see why the imence difference
2 femails and guys are wow can i watch and the women are perhaps its so disgusting but 95% wish they had to gutz to go withanother fem
but 2 guys its classed so bad or other guys see it as anafront to them
its just a tougth place to be
so perhaps you beed to live as they wish in public ans live as you want in private or simply move country to where you can be accepted
trust me its as hard for a girl as a guy to deal with being bi but be happy to chat with you
hi there thats so good to hear
i think i from day one had bi feelings to fem
i have always felt really close to fem ok guys as well but i always feel i need to be ina girls arms to feel as i should do
if that makes sence
with a guy i feel i am there for him to enjoy
withanother fem i feel i am there equal and i feel content
i feel the need to hug and be fem with
all the time
its not just sex its teh feeling of being charged up 24/7 and needing to even just a small peck on the lips is enougth to make me feel wow inside
Progress
45 %
I have told only three in my family it's to big of a risk to tell others right now. But I do want to tell at least one more family member that's a goal of mine. I only have told my Therapist and one other friend so a total of 5 people.
I am depressed sometimes daily I go to therapy I think about suiciding but I dont act on it. I am on medication and I am taking life one day at a time and what ever happens happens and what ever I do I will do. I just dont know yet where to start.
I only came out to 5 people so far. I'm Bisexual/gay and this is no phase I pretty much knew since the late 1980's. For more information look at my journal entry: Explaining my bisexuality and my opinion why I'm not out yet.
I check things alot to make sure things are done or off or closed and I'am kind of organized and I try to keep things clean.
It's sometimes hard to go to sleep and when I do I get enough sleep well at least 4-5 hours sometimes less or more. In the pass months I sleep way after midnight sometimes when the sun rises the next day with the help of a sleeping aide pill. I get frustrated but I try to sleep.
I'm not that good in conversation and socializing. So its hard to talk to others in person all the time. But only if I know whats going on. I don't get out much that's a big problem and other reason's too. I sometimes also think I may say something wrong in a conversation.
Don't have much friends and none that I can hang out and really talk with and me being sort of shy doesn't help either and not strong in socializing. So I don't go out to meet others.
I'm here because I'm a bisexual man or maybe I just GAY and also here to listen and learn from people's experiences and be friends with people. I also find it difficult to find other gay friends where I live so meeting people here may help. I also have been trying to figure everything really out on my own which is been hard because I have to keep everything a secret and coming out to anyone where I live is just to risky.
I have social anxiety and I don't have good communication and socializing skills. So I don't get out much I stay in a lot.
I have anxiety and GAD aka: Generalized Anxiety Disorder it's not bad all the time but I get frustrated and I worry a lot about things and things in my life and what's happening.
