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7:47am, March 27, 2009
so I took another Psych nursing exam today, and I took a Pharm II exam today. My Pharm exam...well, not sure how to expect how I did on that one. I am pretty sure I passed, but I know I missed about 4-5 questions. I totally mixed up my pharm classes for my antiarrhythmics. Class IIs are BETA-BLOCKERS!!! NOT Calcium -channel blockers!!! And Lidocaine is a CLASS Ib Sodium channel blocker, not a calcium blocker!!! Oh well. Such is life. The important thing is, I guess I learned something from taking the exam. Supposedly testing is supposed to be a learning tool, according to my school...
So then we move on to the Psych nursing exam. In a class where at the beg. of the semester I was totally failing...my last test grade was a 90%!!! I managed to pull off an 86%, then a 90%, and now, I feel very strong on this last exam I took today. I have been studying pretty much all weekend for these tests, to the best of my ability.
As for Easter, that was all right. I managed to pull my butt out of bed in time to take my grandma to her Sunrise Service at her church, which kind of lifted my mood for the day. Then I came home, with the INTENT to study, but wound up waking up about three hours later in the chair, books open on my lap, with no recollection whatsoever of faliing asleep. Bummer....Then, I had to high-tail it 52 miles north to go and eat dinner with my dad in MI, where I stayed for a while, just chilling out. After I got in my truck and started to leave, I called my bf back, (who had left my like, 2 messages asking me to call him back), who then got upset when I told him the soonest I could pick up his prescription and bring it to him would be Thurs., and if he needed it sooner, that he would have to go and get it himself. This then erupted into a HUGE fight. There is more to it, but that will have to wait until a later blog. Anyhow...that was my Easter. Church, studying, fighting. Man, do I feel Jesus*s pride shining down on me. And to top it off, my way of coping with it all was pretty much culminated in one big huge-ass breakdown Monday night, where I threw an armchair, punched a wall TWICE, and screamed over & over again for my bf to *just leave me alone! Leave me alone!*
Nursing Dx--> Impaired coping (destructive behavior -- both property and self) r/t acute stress of nursing school, lack of sleep, lack of exercise, and general pain-in-the-ass life right now.
So today, I ran four miles before heading into work. I have been feeling pretty bummed out lately, and after reading a million pages for my Psych nursing exam on Weds., I decided to go to the gym and run before I had to get ready for work. (I work 3-11P, by the way). I ran four fast ones, (7 min., 40 sec miles), but I would like to get back to my former speed of 7 min., 30 sec. miles. @ work, we were kind of crazy, (I had to give a milk of molasses enema??), and really didnt get a MEAL until about 5 thirty tonight. (I had a brownie and milk for breakfast, a yogurt as a pre-run snack, and then carrot sticks and Sun Chips as lunch), so for dinner...well, does a cheeseburger and baked potato w/choc cake count as eating healthy? Needless to say, I was hungry by the time I got home. I ended up having to stay an extra hour tonight b/c of that weird-ass enema, and I think that is what got me hungry again!
I must say though, I am looking forward to tomorrow. So far, the weather is predicting about 55 degrees and sunny, and I am thinking...BIKE RIDE!! I need to get out and do something for myself tomorrow. I work tomorrow night, and Monday night, and this will be good for me. Beating myself up on my bike sounds perfect. I need to start pulling some of this excess weight off. But this funk that I think is just life-related has me wanting to stay in my bed all the time.
Acute lack of motivation and depression related to extreme stress secondary to nursing school, family demands, job, and life in general.
There...I have just diagnosed myself.
I must say though, I am looking forward to tomorrow. So far, the weather is predicting about 55 degrees and sunny, and I am thinking...BIKE RIDE!! I need to get out and do something for myself tomorrow. I work tomorrow night, and Monday night, and this will be good for me. Beating myself up on my bike sounds perfect. I need to start pulling some of this excess weight off. But this funk that I think is just life-related has me wanting to stay in my bed all the time.
Acute lack of motivation and depression related to extreme stress secondary to nursing school, family demands, job, and life in general.
There...I have just diagnosed myself.
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My knees hurt. Hopefully, I can still run my four miles. *Fingers crossed.*
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It is rough going though nursing school and working too. I had to work full time on night shift and then go to school during the day. It was realy hard but worth it in the end. I have given those enemas for a diabetic that was too low on sugar and nothing else seemed to help. It was a sticky mess. Lucky now I'm the charge nurse but don't give those in the nursing home,or at least not yet. I do get into things besides watching over the med nurse and the aides that I would rather not do but that's part of the job. It is hard to get a decent meal when it is busy. It was worse for me when I worked the night shift. I gained alot of weight them esp. on nights that were slow. Good luck with your studies and your exercising.
Kathy253
Love the diagnosis! When I was in psych (and apparently since), I have had the horrible habit of diagnosing myself with different psychiatric disorders. (Twice I've marched into my neurologists office with "proof" that I have conversion disorder and not epilepsy. You'll find that under the heading "Denial" in the coping mechanisms section of your textbook.)
Keep exercising!!! It is the only thing that may keep you sane during nursing school!!! You NEED an outlet. And don't worry about the excess weight. My first professor called it the "Nursing School 40." ;)
monkey