pozfem's Journal

I have an internet friend with some emotional investment, we know each other for about a year.

I am married, he's gay. I don't fool around. I have enjoyed my friendship with this man who drinks and at times now he has told me to stop writing. He has cut me off three times now. I have always forgiven him and trusted him less each time. He did this to me again and apologized the next day. By then I had already eliminated him from all my friend lists in the places we hang out in together.

I accepted his apology but can no longer trust him. I refuse to subject myself to a fourth abandonment. I am angery too I know the anger comes from my abandionment issues. There are many many internet friends I can spend my energy on . I cannot at this time open myself to him again other than the agape type of love that I try and extend to all. Now he had a pearl of a friend in me and he has no idea what he callously threw away. May he find joy and light in his journey.