Meditation Nov 9
November 8, 2009 1:24pm
Elder's Meditation of the Day - November 8 …
pozfem
2:26am, September 4, 2009
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About Me
pozfem
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About Me
An HIV+ former clinical medical professional in the HIV/AIDS/Addiction field and now have my own demons to deal with. Quite the fall from grace from provider to client. I seek support and am glad I to find it here on DS. I am married to a supportive HIV NEGATIVE man, a health care professional. Neither of us have children. Am an only child with an 84 y/o mom who is dealing with deafness and me. A survivor of a near fatal car crash, have pain issues too, well just look to your right, heck I could join a few more communities. I used to have a wonderful sense of humor and was always the life of the party even at the height of the epidemic, when so many people passed, both clients and friends. I want myself back, vibrant, beautiful, active, organized. I keep looking. Hey, have you seen me anywhere?
An HIV+ former clinical medical professional in the HIV/AIDS/Addiction field and now have my own demons to deal with. Quite the fall from grace from provider to client. I seek support and am glad I to find it here on DS. I am married to a supportive HIV NEGATIVE man, a health care professional. Neither of us have children. Am an only child with an 84 y/o mom who is dealing with deafness and me. A survivor of a near fatal car crash, have pain issues too, well just look to your right, heck I could
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Interests
When well, I love to cook and used to garden. I write some poetry sporadically. We have a dog and a cat on five acres. The house is a work in progress and at a stand still now. I volunteer to write for the local AIDS agency, I just volunteered for the education committee to go out to speak to kids again, but I do not leave the house during the winters. The computer is my lifeline. I like talk radio especially Coast to Coast AM with Art Bell.
When well, I love to cook and used to garden. I write some poetry sporadically. We have a dog and a cat
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Recent Activity
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13 journal posts, 3 hugs received, 3 discussion posts, 1 hug given, 1 journal comment
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pozfem gave MAK1AH a high five 9:58pm
Let's keep up the good posts! Thank you!…
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pozfem wrote a discussion post in the HIV support group: Thank you for this 9:51pm
By Michael Smith, North American Correspondent, MedPage Today Published: November 06, 2009 Reviewed by…
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pozfem wrote a journal entry: Meditation Nov 9 1:24pm
Elder's Meditation of the Day - November 8 "See how the boy is with his sister and the other…
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pozfem gave dobiedots a 'go for it' 1:21pm
look for jobs anyway, you wouldn't believe the things you know how to do and embellish. Sure good to…
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pozfem gave dobiedots a 'go for it' 1:21pm
look for jobs anyway, you wouldn't believe the things you know how to do and embellish. Sure good to…
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Journal
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Abandonment & Trust
November 7, 2009 7:44pm
I have an internet friend with some emotional investment, we know each other for about a year.
I am married, he's gay. I don't fool around. I …
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NOV 7
November 7, 2009 3:21pm
Elder's Meditation of the Day - November 7 "Abuse and repression have no …
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Journal Entry for November 6, 2009
November 6, 2009 11:25pm
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Here's another fascinating press release: http://www.reuters.com/article/pre...
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http://www.medpagetoday.com/Geneti... amazing! did you know?
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i think it's great new there getting close i read what you posted
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please keep up your lovely posts and i hope you are sleeping better
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I am in the great state of Michigan. Where the jobless rate is the highest in the nation. Needless to say, I am not working presently.
Thank you for the journal entry!
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Support Groups
Close Hepatitis C
Hep C poz found out when diagnosed with hiv. Need to start treatment again but have to wait until depression is under control
Treatments
- Interferon Not Working
- It cleared for one year back in 93 Planning to start new treatment as soon as I clear my depression. I tolerated treatment well back then.
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- I belong to a yahoo support group too besides DS http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/hcvsupport4u/
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI have so many autoimmune conditions but depression is debilitating and I'm not sure which condition is causing the imbalance. It just is what it is and I am doing my best up at bat with all these curve balls I've been pitched.
Treatments
- Abilify Not Working
- Effexor Not Working
- Elavil Not Working
- Prozac Not Working
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Valium Working / Worked
- Helps with back pain and anxiety but creates depression
- Wellbutrin Not Working
Open Obesity
Been a fatty all my life. When I was dx'd with hiv it gave me even more of an excuse to eat whatever I wanted, thinking I was dying anyway, that was in 1988. Recently I lost 25 lbs but it's hard to control my portions. I like to eat good food. I like to cook.
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- Recent small weight loss
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- Cannot do due to chronic pain
- Eat Less Working / Worked
- I am at a standstill now
Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery
I have smoked for almost 40 yrs and stopped twice experiencing much anger. Since I have other major health conditions I would like to stop again and need support My husband stopped with Chantrix and I want to stop now too. I stopped with Chantrix on July 10th no relapses so far still on the medication, still need support. Thanks
Treatments
- Chantix Working / Worked
- Am using and it is working
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- worked on and off for several weeks
- Hypnotherapy Working / Worked
- Worked for nine months
- Nicotine Patch Working / Worked
- Worked for over a year
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- gained thirty pounds and didn't stop smoking
- Willpower Working / Worked
- No matter what one uses a certain amount of willpower is involved
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a FriendI have AIDS, lost many friends to it. My most recent loss of a friend who did not have aids has me baffled. I deal with cumulative grief I also have lost several pets these past few years. I am numb.
Treatments
- Crying Too Soon to Tell
- I cannot shed a tear for this friends loss I am baffled. I do not cry, I am numb.
- Grief Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- I am re entering therapy. I do not go out in winter and it's still snowing here
- Prayer Somewhat Helpful
- I pray when I can. Thoughts are prayers too
Open Bipolar Disorder
How could I be bi-polar when I've been depressed for years? I am in denial.
Open Breast Cancer
pozfem hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Anxiety
I have a hard time going out, I live rurally and am alone at the top of a mountain. I can drive tho I had an accident, I don't drive in the snow. I am just waking up from all the meds and want to continue to change.
Treatments
- Breathwork Working / Worked
- I need to breathe 7 meditate long before I'm due to go anywhere, to prepare myself. It does work, once I am out there I seem to be okay, but more often it's better if I am with someone
- Paxil Working / Worked
- Just started 10 mg a month ago
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- It worked before I don't see why it can't work again, with help.
- Valium Working / Worked
- On it long term, helps with back pain 20-30 mg a day as needed
