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Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Parent

My father died

Treatments

Crying Not Working

I cry about everything. I can't watch television without something making me cry. It's extremely frustrating not being able to keep my emotions under control, especially when it's the little things that get to me.

Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful

I am a workaholic by nature and it only became worse after my father died. I bury myself in schoolwork. It all finally caught up with me once I was in college and had more time to spare and think. I still try to keep busy, but I find myself staying in bed almost every weekend.

Psychotherapy Working / Worked

My therapist at school was wonderful, but after being on medical leave, I've started seeing someone here at home. I was making a lot of progress with my therapist at school; made some realizations and gained insight into my own behavior, but this new person isn't really helping much. She talks more than I do...and since I'm only home for another three months, I figured I should just stick with her.

Zoloft Working / Worked

I am currently on 200mg of Zoloft and my psychiatrist is thinking about upping me to 250mg. It was working until I got sick. The summer was wonderful but come fall semester, I noticed the effects had died down. Currently, I am at home on medical leave because of a PE and my mood has been all over the place. My downs are extremely difficult and it's getting harder and harder to snap myself out of it.

Open Anxiety

I'm always anxious and on edge. My mind is always going...there's no pause button for sleeping or anything. I dream about what Im anxious about. I startle easily. Anything can bring it on...but mostly it's something related to college and exams etc.

Treatments

Klonopin Working / Worked

I'm addicted. I can't tell if it even does anything.

Zoloft Working / Worked

Open College Stress

Open Insomnia

Recently, my sleep cycle has become really out of wack. I go to bed at 6am and wake up around 3. I can't stay asleep and I spend hours just laying in bed staring at the ceiling. It's really starting to affect my mood and everyday life.

Treatments

Ambien Not Working

It worked wonders in terms of helping me fall asleep, but I'd wake up with a terrible headache the next morning...almost like a hang over.

Reading Not Working

I thought reading my organic chemistry textbook would help me fall asleep, but instead, it just makes me think about what I read for hours after I stopped.

Trazodone Somewhat Helpful

Trazodone makes me oversleep

Open Physical & Emotional Abuse

I was physically and emotionally abused by an ex boyfriend when I was 13. My family tends to put me down tons, but I don't know if I should consider that abuse as well.

Open Self-Injury

I used to self injure when I was 14/15. I relapsed a few weeks ago when I picked a small section of my arm. That small section turned into 1/3 of my forearm that I went to town on. I'm back on the wagon again and hoping to stay that way. I'm on Coumadin and cutting while on it just makes it more thrilling and makes me want to push my limits.

Treatments

Cold Turkey Working / Worked

Cold turkey is usually what works best for me. Im still healing from a few weeks ago. All I want to do is cut over them. I had to stop because of the blood thinners...but honestly it just makes me want to start again and go even further with it.