A Humbling Experience
April 19, 2009 1:00am
Why does it sometimes take a rough situation to turn things around? And how, sometimes, does inspiration come from the least likely of places? I …
lilbassplayer 
1:18am, April 19, 2009
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About Me
I�m a 22 year old college student, majoring in mass communications with an emphasis in electronic media. It�s funny that I�m majoring in mass comm, because in actuality, I live in my own little world, where music, art, and my computer keep me from getting too lost in the clouds. I feel really out of touch with people in general. I was a shy child, and although I grew out of my shyness, I never feel I learned to properly trust. To this day, I remain mostly lonely and, on an internal level, terrified of people� the few friendships I make rarely last longer than a few months. However, I appear bubbly and friendly, so I just go with the flow the best I can.
I�m a 22 year old college student, majoring in mass communications with an emphasis in electronic media. It�s funny that I�m majoring in mass comm, because in actuality, I live in my own little world, where music, art, and my computer keep me from getting too lost in the clouds. I feel really out of touch with people in general. I was a shy child, and although I grew out of my shyness, I never feel I learned to properly trust. To this day, I remain mostly lonely and, on an internal level, terrified
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Made the appointment :]
March 19, 2009 11:12pm
Well....
....I finally did it.
Today, I made a Dr. appointment. It may not sound like much, but it is a huge step for me. HUGE.
I am …
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thanks for doing the happy post :)
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thanks for doing the happy post :)
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Hi Hun, To answer your question, I am cared for by an eating disorders team and also the hospice team, both work with each other and I have had several stays in the hospice for respite and for bone treatment infusions, because of all the problems I have had over the past couple of months regarding the anti-depressants and its looking like there is going to have to be another change, they feel that because of my bmi etc, it may be better if I go into the hospice.How are you doing? is the pic your cat?wow a Blue bi colour
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Close Eating Disorders
Type: AnorexiaI have never been a normal eater; I remember realizing I was overweight at age 4, and have been struggling with negative self image since then. I believe the first time I tried dieting was at age 7; anorexia behaviors began at age 12, however my ED really didn't begin until I was 14. I began spiraling out of control at 15. I began recovery in 2006 after going IP. Recovery was going decent within some occasional slip-ups until fall 2008; I've been relapsing since then.
Treatments
- Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- It is very helpful to be with other people who are going thru the same thing... but the downside was that we could easily trigger each other.
- Outpatient Treatment Program Working / Worked
- I was "forced" into an IOP program... I am sure it would have been a lot more helpful had I wanted to recover at the time.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- I don't know where I would be without my family and boyfriend
Close Arrhythmias
Type: TachycardiaI have VT with ventricular fibrillation. I have had two and a half ablations (one of them they took me into the operating room, but never went in since they couldn't get a proper mapping) and now have an ICD.
Treatments
- Betapace Not Working
- I already have low blood pressure; taking this dropped my blood pressure dangerously low (thankfully, I was in the hospital when they started me on it- I woke up in the middle of the night with everyone freaking out because of my low bp).
- Implantable Cardioverter-Defibrillator Working / Worked
- After the three attempted ablations, my Dr. decided to put an ICD in me. It has been a life saver
- Radiofrequency Ablation Working / Worked
- After three hospitalizations, and two attempted ablations, I spent two weeks at the Mayo Clinic. While there, my Dr.s discovered I had not one but three spots where my heart was misfiring. They were only able to ablate one; it has helped, but I still have arrhythmias.
- Rythmol Not Working
- I was on this for months; it did not work for me. We later discovered the arrhythmia was coming from three different locations, as opposed to one.
