Journal Entry for November 20, 2009
Wingedwolf's thread in Alcohol Discussion asked, "What would your glamorous commercial for alcohol look like?" So I posted this:
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1 discussion post, 1 hug received
whitefingers wrote a journal entry updating their 1yr sobriety goal 5:18am
Wingedwolf's thread in Alcohol Discussion asked, "What would your glamorous commercial for alcohol…
whitefingers changed their mood to Good 5:18am
whitefingers wrote a journal entry updating 2 goals 8:30pm
whitefingers wrote a discussion post in the Alcoholism support group: Wings n Yings 5:36am
Husban n I used to work all day together on a project, drinking our way through, doing crappy sloppy…
whitefingers updated their status 10:30am
My friends are blessing me. Mary, Dar, Paula, Karen, JunieMoon,...…
Wingedwolf's thread in Alcohol Discussion asked, "What would your glamorous commercial for alcohol look like?" So I posted this:
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working on it. or am i? I don't go to meetings. I don't go to work. I'm painting the rental house, that's work, right? Eventually …
Thanks for the comment about your husband. I've been feeling all those things and it helped to know that things will get better as I get better.
thank you
Thanks for the Hug! Really needed that!
During the times when I questioned this "God thing" the most, the strangest things would happen. My sponsor would always ask me "Is it odd or is it God?".
Stay sober and keep your eyes open darlin'. I may be late but God's always on time. Gentle hugs, Dianna
Hey there, it is alice. There are no words I can share with you that will ease the pain of what you are going through. It hurts, big time. It (your beautiful baby rejecting you for now and maybe for a very long time) is so painful...but still you have to be the parent and not the co-dependent at this time. My oldest son was a moma's boy compared to his younger brother...but guess who is the son standing by my side at this time??? It is the younger one who was a pain in the butt as a young boy but learn life lessons in a much better way the older he became. I continue to believe one day my older son will get it, but for now I have to live a life without him, almost like he has died...be the parent, set the boundaries with love, stand back and see what happens...it may take a very long time, but truly I believe in the end it will make all the difference for them in their lives...and isn't that really what we want the most for them??? Honestly, I will tell you it hurts so much many days, I loved my firstborn son so very much, I feel betrayed by someone I don't know, my Nicholas would have never behaved this way to me...it tore me apart for many years. Now I am able to put up my great walls of armour and not let it hurt me so much on a daily basis. Remember it is about them and their stuff and not you nor your stuff in life. Try also to focus on the kids you have in your life now, and yourself. She will be back one day...just trust that if you gave her a good beginning foundation of love...she will return to it one day. I promise. Alice
My daughter has petit mal seizures, recently has escalated to a grand mal. She's on 300 mg Zonegran now, is severely depressed, withdrawing from the entire world. I'm terrified for her.