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Goal End Date is Jun 1, 09 176 days ago.
Itzjustme 
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About Me
Itzjustme
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About Me
******Males, no disrespect but i have trust issues, so please dont try to be my friend, sorry its not you****** I'm 16. I feel really hopeless, and i feel like no one understands me, i think they all think i want attention. im just really sad. =( i knew about DS since i was in 8th, now in 10th joined DS because well i came out with this sexual abuse in november, and everything seemed to be crashing down. i've never wanted to die as much as i did this year. i also on and off with this whole cutting thing its been maybe a yr but i dont count last year cuz it wasnt as bad til november 08..i get told alot that just because im black i gotta be strong in life..well idk wat that means..i dont see race ever i see people and im just a person..i just wanna feel like someone cares If there is anything you wanna talk about, i'm all ears or eyes!! lol...but yea meassage me anytime
******Males, no disrespect but i have trust issues, so please dont try to be my friend, sorry its not you****** I'm 16. I feel really hopeless, and i feel like no one understands me, i think they all think i want attention. im just really sad. =( i knew about DS since i was in 8th, now in 10th joined DS because well i came out with this sexual abuse in november, and everything seemed to be crashing down. i've never wanted to die as much as i did this year. i also on and off with this whole cutting
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i love helping people...i love to read...i love talking to counselors, Law & Oder SVU btw my avi is a cartoon picture of det. Olivia Benson aka Mariska Hargitay
i love helping people...i love to read...i love talking to counselors, Law & Oder SVU btw my avi is a
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txs...
why the sad face?
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hey, sweetie. it gets better. i'm here if you need to talk.
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I miss you too its just been a rough few months and I have had a hard time being able to support anyone
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yeah i know i understand sorry you went thru that time.. i here for you hun... i hope you have a good weekend... ang
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Support Groups
Close Sexual Abuse
i was sexually abuse from age 9-12...im 16 now and my flashbacks are crazy and they suckk...i cant beleive this Sept. 09..i just found out he started with me at 3 yrs old and i told my mom and my mom yelled at him ...and so it stopped til i was 9 then started again..i dont rmember wathappened then tho
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
- talking to my therpist , made me feel digusting inside but helped....now that i dont have my therapist i try to think about anything,,,and push it to the side and trying to ignore memories
Close Self-Injury
i've been cutting bad since november 08...i tried it a few times last year amd i liked the feeling it gave, i like feeling in control instead of being controlled...
Treatments
- Outpatient Treatment Program Working / Worked
- im in therapy for sexual abuse and we only talked about it once, so ill see if it works
- Red Marker Somewhat Helpful
- kinda worked like i get to see the redness everywhere and do as many but blood is still better
- Rubber Bands Not Working
- i need to cause some type of distruction, i need to see that i made some damage...all rubber bands did was leave welts that went away...nothing
- Talking Not Working
- everyone is tired of hearing from me...but coming here on ds makes me feel better!
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
what do i write about?...i dont even really know what this is, i just know that its unbearable at times, ermmm...i was diagnosed with this April 09...i guess i've had it for a while
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- talking to my therapist helped the flashbacks go away i still have memories but i try to push them aside, and try not to think about it...cuz i dont have my therspist so im so scared that it i let the memories come they will turn into flashbacks and ill be only again with them
- Reading Working / Worked
- reading works but i like books about abuse and stuff...idk how that works but it does...i guess it distracts me from my own abuse
- Talking Working / Worked
- the only person i go into detail about the sexual abuse is my therapist....i dont have her anymore so i dont talk about it
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionIm 16. i feel like shit, i feel worthless, i want to just hate everyone but ofcourse i dont. i feel like the world is mad at me all the time!!.. i cry to much, i sometimes dont want to be here....i just dont know anymore....diagnosed with this April 09
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- u guys help me alot! luv u guys xoxo
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- i dont rly think it helped because weve always tlked about how i feel and stuff but it wasnt im sad or im this...idk im still extremely depressed
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- no one wants to hear my shit
- Writing Working / Worked
- im writting again in a diary that locks.....writting helps alittle bcause i know my diary doesnt get sick of me and i could write "talk" as long as i want since i do it in my head anyways
- Hospitalization Considering
- my dad wants to send me to the hospital wen he gets money...he said i too sever to just talk to a therapist
Open Twins, Triplets & More
Im a twin!!! i have a twin brother...were 16
