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Fibugsmomma 
11:08am, March 16, 2009
What a difference a nice sunny day makes. I had the kids outside for 3 hours straight this weekend, the weather was nice, the sun was warm....I even got some colour on my face.
I went out and bought Fi-bug a helmet to protect her healing skull....I'm so paraniod that she is going to fall and hit it......but I don't want her stuck inside....it's hard when you have a 28 month old who is a daredevil....her brother was never like that.
I don't know if I can handle another 3 years while her head heals....I'm so scared that she is going to do damage and that she'll need more work done.
My daughter was born with a condition that is called craniosynostosis, it made a part of her skull fuse pre-mature while I was pregnant with her. She had a 6 hour operation when she was 10 months old, they removed the front of her skull from her brain, reshaped it and put it back on with disolvable plates and screws. She was in the ICU for 1 day and in the hospital for 1 week, her eyes were swollen shut for 3 days.
I've been trying to deal with all the stress that was invloved with this, but instead I stuck it in the back on my head and dove in head first to help other Mom's who's children are born with this condition. I've been invloved with a support group for 2 years and the hospital where my Fi-bug had her surgery reffers parents to me that want to talk.
Recently I've been having anxiety that something bad is going to happen to my daughter, when I read symptoms, I think she has it, I'm having nightmares that she is straped to the operating table in the middle of the surgery and she wakes up screaming for me, but I can't get to her.
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hi sounds like you put all your feelings as you say to the back, but they allways serface, but prohaps at the time it was all you could do,she needed you and so did others,but prohaps now is the time to heal,i think you need to talk, your nightmares tell the story of your fear when it happened, the fear that you could not express,and now prohaps becouse it is safer now,your mind says it is time for this to come out,i know the things that happened to me,got locked inside, becouse i tried to tell this person, and very well meaning she said, oh not that again, and i then hadn't said what happened and how i felt,but now i am tryng to say the things that happened and it is helping the flashbacks and nightmares.
thegardener