Uphil Climb
June 25, 2009 9:59am
everyday I start the climb, everyday I start new, then something happens, then something crosses my path, I roll down that hill everyday I start …
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kattwoman 
7:31pm, September 3, 2009
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About Me
kattwoman
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About Me
My husband died of a massive heart attack while he was at home in the morning getting my 6 yr old daughter ready for school. I was at work and my daughter had to call me at work to tell me daddy was sleeping on the floor and will not wake up. he was 43. We were the best of friends, each of us were our first boy/girlfriends and have been together almost 30 yrs. I am at a loss of what to do. I have an extensive family (11 brothers and sisters) but I am the first to loose someone close, even my parents are still alive, and they just can not comprehend.
My husband died of a massive heart attack while he was at home in the morning getting my 6 yr old daughter ready for school. I was at work and my daughter had to call me at work to tell me daddy was sleeping on the floor and will not wake up. he was 43. We were the best of friends, each of us were our first boy/girlfriends and have been together almost 30 yrs. I am at a loss of what to do. I have an extensive family (11 brothers and sisters) but I am the first to loose someone close, even my parents
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I was always running around with my kids, my husband or all of the many animals I did with rescue, now I am not sure. I seem to just sit here and stare at the computer screen, Mark's favorite spot in the house
I was always running around with my kids, my husband or all of the many animals I did with rescue, now
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Today would have been 18 yrs, we were only 2 months shy of it.
May 18, 2009 7:16pm
As I sit here alone and sad I think of our life together how it was you and I Mark and Kathy and i think of all we did I also think of what we had …
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sad and down and out
May 6, 2009 10:30pm
I am just so tired. sad and tired and so alone in this massive world.
I never wanted this to happen, i did not want to be here on this end...... I …
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went to work today
May 4, 2009 9:49pm
Worked 6 hours, started out badly. I do animal rescue and one of the kittens I was trying to save passed away this morning, not unexpected but was …
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I hate my new roles
April 21, 2009 10:38pm
I hate that I am now mother and father to the kids I hate that I am the sole caretaker to all the animals I hate that it is now my responsibility …
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I love your poem that you wrote. It says so much of how hard we are trying to live and how life is so hard now without our husbands.
Today is also the five month mark since I lost my husband, Denny. He had a brain tumor. I never would have said it made it easier before because it was hell to watch him go through the biopsy, then the brain resection, then the chemo and radiation, then the waiting, then the problems with his memory, then his body weakening, then all the doctor visits and tests, then watching him dieing, but I am starting to realize that having some idea that he was going to die did make it so we did not want him to suffer anymore when he took his last breath.
I still tried everything to save him and it hurts that I could not, but even the doctors could not save him.
You not only are facing what I am....and I am too young to be a widow...but you are even younger, and it was unexpected, and you have young children, and you got together young enough that you may not have had to rely on your own strength before you lost your husband. It is all SO much to go through, I can't imagine.
What I am going through is enough...
Anyhow, I am not trying to upset you, only to say that it makes sense to me that you are still having an even harder time of it than me....and I miss my husband so so much!!
Please hang in there. Know that you are not alone in your pain and we are here for you here at DS.
many many hugs!!
-Diana
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Haven't seen you on in awhile just wanted to send a hug and say hello.
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Thank you... As hard as this day was...I can still return a hug!
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You are special, you are important, you will get through this. I'm sorry it hurts so much right now. Don't give up. Love and Hugs, Martha
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Close Widows & Widowers
My husband died March 5th at the age of 43. he has been my soul mate for almost 30 yrs.
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- Grief Counseling Too Soon to Tell
- one group session, not so good.
- Pets Working / Worked
- Remembering Working / Worked
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Time Working / Worked
Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Partner/SpouseMy husband died march 5th at the age of 43. he has been my soul mate for almost 30 yrs.
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- Crying Working / Worked
- Getting Angry Working / Worked
- Remembering Working / Worked
Open Back Pain
I have a fusion at c5-c6 and a herniated disk right above.
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- Acupressure Not Working
- Acupuncture Not Working
- Chiropractic Adjustment Working / Worked
- Cortisone (Injection) Working / Worked
- Epidural Injection Working / Worked
- Flexeril Working / Worked
- Heat Working / Worked
- Hydrocodone Working / Worked
- Ibuprofen Somewhat Helpful
- Naproxen Somewhat Helpful
- Physical Therapy Working / Worked
Open Scoliosis
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