another friday night
November 7, 2009 1:40am
it's so depressing being home on friday and saturday nights. and here i sit, watching Golden Girls all weekend. awesome show, but still. i …
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November 7
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MissNicole83 wrote a journal entry: another friday night 1:40am
it's so depressing being home on friday and saturday nights. and here i sit, watching Golden Girls…
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sisters wedding and other stuff
October 27, 2009 8:49pm
I was so exited about it that i managed to push my insicurities way in the back and have a good time. his family was really nice to me. …
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just thinking
October 19, 2009 9:37pm
These are things I can really put on my facebook or tell my friends. I just dont want them to know how bad things are, and I dont want to …
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wow its been a while!
October 3, 2009 10:51am
Holy crap the last time I wrote here I just found out about the C word. Turns out i was stage 0! I didnt even know there was such a …
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when it rains it pours
April 24, 2009 10:42pm
So Tuesday I found out I have cervical cancer. I'm barely 26. The only definate right now, is I need surgery. We don't yet …
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hope u feel better hugs!! i am here if you need me. you are on my friend's list. so i still remember u. have a great blessed day!!
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Hope you're doing well...I've been thinking about you!
Prayer
May God bless you and keep you in perfect peace. Here are some encouraging healing bible verses to uplift you. Remember, faith moves mountains and you can get through anything in the name of Jesus. John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. Exodus 23:25 And ye shall serve the LORD your God, and he shall bless thy bread, and thy water; and I will take sickness away from the midst of thee. Psalms 6:2 Have mercy upon me, O LORD; for I am weak: O LORD, heal me; for my bones are vexed. Psalm 103:3-4 Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases; Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies. Isaiah 53:5 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed. Matthew 4:23 And Jesus went about all Galilee, teaching in their synagogues, and preaching the gospel of the kingdom, and healing all manner of sickness and all manner of disease among the people. Jeremiah 17:14 Heal me, O LORD, and I shall be healed; save me, and I shall be saved: for thou art my praise. Matthew 8:14-17 And when Jesus was come into Peter's house, he saw his wife's mother laid, and sick of a fever. And he touched her hand, and the fever left her: and she arose, and ministered unto them. When the even was come, they brought unto him many that were possessed with devils: and he cast out the spirits with his word, and healed all that were sick: That it might be fulfilled which was spoken by Esaias the prophet, saying, Himself took our infirmities, and bare our sicknesses.
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Close Depression
Treatments
- Paxil Working / Worked
- I felt better on it and I cant wait to to to the DR again and get back on it.
Close Self-Injury
I used to cut all the time when I was 14 and 15. I dont even remember why I stopped. I still have a ton of scars. I did it again at the end of January for the first time in about 10 years. They are still there I am such a slow healer. If somebody sees them there is like no possible exuse. So that makes me wish they would go away. Then again, I'm kind of obsessed with staring at them.
Open Agoraphobia & Social Anxiety
Sometimes I wish I could go out like normal people because I feel like I am missing my life. Then again, I wish I could stay home forever. My refusal to go to certain places has caused such huge problems with my friends. I guess thats why I dont see them much anymore. They just dont ask me to go places, because they know I wont. I am very heavy, and I just cant take the comments and stares. I am 26, and I've never had a boyfriend because I'm too afraid to go out, so I cant meet anybody.
Open Obesity
Treatments
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- I'm so heavy that its hard to find something to try that I know will be safe.
Open Anxiety
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- Helped my sleeping issues too.
- Breathing Exercises Considering
Open Food Addiction
I have been doing good this past week. Not many binges at all, when usually every time I eat its a binge. My goal had always been to eat as much food as possible at once. Like I was trying to hurt myself. I've been making slightly better food choices. Might have ranch on it but its still a salad! Trying to eat normal portions, even though I'm not quite sure what those are.
Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide
I am named after my aunt who took her own life a couple years before I was born. I've seen how much it affects a family so many years later. My sisters best friend took his own life a couple years ago. She took it very, very hard. She is still close with his family. His dad will be an usher at her wedding this fall, I know she is gonna miss him that day.
Open Phobia
MissNicole83 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Loneliness
I know I partly bring it on myself. Because of my anxiety I can't/wont go places where I could meet a guy. %95 of the time, my lonliness is because I'm single. Always have been, always. A friend has been telling me "you'll find somebody" since we were 15. I'm 26. Ever hear anybody say, If there's some one out there for every one, mine died at birth. I am convinced there is no one for me. I am so afraid of being alone forever. I dont know how much longer I can stand it because it hurts.
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
MissNicole83 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Cervical Cancer
Diagnosed with cervical cancer April 21st 6:36 pm 2009
