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phloxinsox 
10:59am Saturday
As I, once again, face the risk of homelessness, I am often approached regarding "family."
I am and remain estranged from biological family, who--for many, many years--exercised crazy-making behavior, gaslighting, and character assasination. NOT GOING BACK THERE!!!
My interest is in building a "new" family...a small but supportive circle of friends.
I am and remain estranged from biological family, who--for many, many years--exercised crazy-making behavior, gaslighting, and character assasination. NOT GOING BACK THERE!!!
My interest is in building a "new" family...a small but supportive circle of friends.
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No! I do NOT want to keeping living my life this way. I do not want to live like a damn gypsy!!!
I want stability, familiarity, security, safety, and respect just like most people!
I want stability, familiarity, security, safety, and respect just like most people!
Antagonism, insensitivity, and/or abuse DOES NOT qualify as "my PTSD issue!"
Saturday, November 21, 2009 |
Saturday, November 21, 2009 |
Just to keep things in proper perspective...
Antagonism, insensitivity, and/or abuse DOES NOT qualify as "MY PTSD issue!"
Antagonism, insensitivity, and/or abuse DOES NOT qualify as "MY PTSD issue!"
Past Entries
Biological sister's response (while I was in a shelter)...
"You have a mental health condition and you need to be medicated."
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Biological mother's response while I was homeless and following my rejection of an offer to stay in a house which was owned by a triggering male, where I was told there was Meth in the basement and where the tenant who offered me to stay with him admitted to being involved in prostitution...
(Mocking) "Oh! Poor me!" "If you aren't willing to accept the help that is offered to you, then you deserve to be homeless!"
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My biological family had for years made me out as crazy--parallel with their rejection and crazy-making behavior toward me!
Why the FUCK would I want to go back there?!!!
I JUST WANT TO FIND MY OWN WAY! TO BUILD A FAMILY OF MY OWN!!!
I am and have tried for years to just take responsibility for my own life and future...and DAMN IT...that will NOT include persons who are obsessed with making me out as CRAZY!
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It isn't important that what I need come from THEM! What is important is that I find what I need. I AM JUST TRYING TO ACCEPT AND EXERCISE RESPONSIBILITY FOR MY OWN LIFE AND FUTURE! I do NOT want to allow myself to be re-subjected to CRAZY-MAKING!!!
I just want a chance to re-claim whatever is left of my fucking life and future. DAMN IT!
I am sick and tired of being antagonized constantly, of facing homelessness repeatedly, of living like a fucking gypsy, of feeling threatened all the time.
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