TooLate's Journal

As the spouse of someone with schizophrenia, I would like to hear from people who have it. Do you know you have it? If so how, because the doctor told you or do you just know. And if you do know then do you know that some of the stuff you think isn't real?
Sometimes my husband sounds so normal, and he even told me he loved me the other day and that he wanted to see me. Than yesterday he started talking something about bodies everywhere and some entities (I didn't recognize what he called them). So does it go like in waves and maybe more at different times of the day? I noticed he talks more about that stuff in the evening.

We are separated so it's hard for me to see what's going on. His mom blames me and is in denial which really angers me being that my husbands sister was also schizophrenic and commited suicide about 5 years ago.

Also I get scared when he sais "good" things, I thinks he may be lying and saying goodby because he is going to do the same thing.

But then maybe he just has good phases.

Any information is MORE THAN APPRECIATED.
I am going to a support group next week and hope to get some answers.

Thanks for your help and support and my heart is with you.