Journal

Does not anyone in this world care anymore, David died nearly a year ago from neglect, in hospital and it feels like, that everyone has forgot and do not care, only me, who is still battling the NHS.

Feel so lonely, that I'm just banging my head on a brickwall, trying to stand up for David, but it's ok for them, the NHS, they are allowed to get away with how they treated David in hospital, but I have to some how carry on with all my feels of hate and hurt,and painful reminders.

This world and life is so unfair.

I've had to farm out my lads, because my partner passed away, nearly a year ago, I have not been able to cope with work, so have been on just basic sick pay. But because all of my lads are working they expect them to pay all of the bills and we have not been coping.

The only way I can have any help is for my lads to move out. So they have been moving them selves out, the council have given me 4 weeks to show that I can pay them so much a week, but I can not do that because I'm payed monthly. Then they are going to repossess the house my car, and put me into a 1 bedroom flat in arough part of where ever.

The CAB are then going to, advise me to go bankruplt, does it get any worse, my parents, that have never been there for me, have not even talked to me. I just feel all on my own and no one care's. I have lost my soul mate, my lads, and I feel i'm losing myself, it is very hard to keep going, when it feel's like everone is against you.