Journal

Well, I am finally done with the hard part, surgery is over. Actually the surgery was the easy part. Recovering has been the hard part. I had to stay 6 days in the hospital because my organs were "waking up slow". On top of that they had me on morphine for the first two days, which made me have severe shaking in my legs. I told them to take me off of it. Then they gave me some Norco, which makes me extremely sick, so you know what? I am just dealing with the pain on my own. Its been 2 1/2 weeks since the day, and I am still sore and now I have this pain on my lower right side and a major headache for the last two days, just cant wait to find out where thats going to go! I guess all in all, I am happy that I did the surgery, at least for now. I already have to go back to work a week from today, I can only hope that I am ready, and not pushing myself too soon. Time will tell. The scars will fade, but will the pain remain???? Who knows. All I can do is take it one day at a time.

Today is the day before my surgery, and for those who have already been there you know the routine....liquid diet, bowel prep, and alot of thinking. I woke up this morning feeling a little depressed and drained. I know its just due to the nerves for tomorrow so I just have to get over it. I just cant help but to wonder if I am doing the right thing and if I am ready to handle the whole recovery process. It doesnt help that I have never had surgery, a broken bone, or anything, so this whole process is very stressful to me. Once this is over I can only hope that I can put all of this behind me. The time is coming faster than I had anticipated all I have left is the hope for a successful laparoscopic surgery and a speedy recovery. I will post again when I am released from the hospital. Thanks for the support.

Today is 03/03/2009. I went in and got the ball rolling for this surgery thing...Admissions they call it. I thought that after talking to them I would feel a little more confident about my decision to do this, but thats not the case. I still feel the same nervousness, and almost irritation as well, kind of like "why do I have to deal with this" type of feelings. Its all very frustrating actually. I can only hope that I made the right decision to go through with this, and I guess time will tell. My surgery is on thursday 3/05/09, and Im not exactly sure what to expect, but I guess no one can know exactly how its going to go, its a game of wait and see. Im just glad that I found this website to go to. Its comforting when you can see that your not alone with this. I have had the symptoms of diverticulitus for about 8-9 years. I kept going to the emergency room, thanks to a lack in our nations healthcare availability, only to get pushed out with a quick diagnosis, acid reflux, GERD, unknown abdominal pain, etc. Finally, I got a doctor who noiticed I had been there ALOT for the same reasons, what a genius!! He had the proper testing done for me, gave me a referral to a gastro-intestinal specialist, and within 9 months of that, here I am 4 attacks later, fully diagnosed, and about to under surgery.Who would have known!?!?