yggdrasil's Journal

Suddenly, I feel I'm no longer a kid. I actually feel compelled to plan ahead a little bit. When I was in middle school, this was not the case. I wanted to plan ahead and be ready for hischool, but I failed at the attempt. I was looking at the wrong books/planning too far ahead. I was really shy too and thought i would be able to do it on my own. Apparently, that didn't work. So then I slipped into the sidelines, and thought things would sort them out themselves. Instead, that led to even bigger problems. Life moves faster than I thought so that's why what I don't think I should think I will get a second chance. So this is what I'm thinking now. I don't wanna miss a chance and regret it later in life. I have a tendency of planning too far ahead and not focusing on what's important now! Sometimes I just feel there isn't enough time. There's never enough time and everyone only gets a set amount of time. So choices are important too. If you live on the edge everyday, you'll never appreciate life. If you're always on the sidelines, you'll never experience life. Therefore, my deduction is...idk, to have a balance?