Starting over again Day 1
June 2, 2009 1:34am
Today is day 1, starting new again. I lasted 66 days last time. The night I fell off the wagon I really did fall. I twisted my knee …
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afreeme
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About Me
Married with a daughter and 3 dogs. I'm a Christian. Love to go to the beach and the mountains, camp and also do touristy things. Hoping to find peace and sobriety.
Married with a daughter and 3 dogs. I'm a Christian. Love to go to the beach and the mountains, camp and also do touristy things. Hoping to find peace and sobriety.
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Day 16
March 12, 2009 10:23pm
Oh my gosh! I've had such a stressful 2 days. So nervous, I feel like I've had a million things to do and can't get them all …
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Day 13
March 10, 2009 12:55am
Well, it's the end of day 13. I hardly slept last night, so I was dragging today. My brain fog has been clearing and I've felt …
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Felt Great Today Day 9
March 6, 2009 12:26am
Today was so nice, I woke feeling wonderful. I don't know if it's from not drinking or if it's from the liquid B vitamins and …
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Close Alcoholism
I drink too much too often and suffer with too many hangovers and insomnia when I drink. Afterwards I feel remorseful. I've tried controlling the amount I drink, sometimes it works, but I never know when it won't. I'm sick of it. I'm happy and cheerful when I drink so people enjoy the drunk me, makes it harder to quit... If I was mean & abusive everyone would be on board. My husband will be there for me as will my best friend and my siblings. I want to stay quit this time.
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Considering
- I want to try the 12 steps. I've sort of started to work them over the years, but I've never gotten a sponsor and really worked them.
- AA Meetings Working / Worked
- After a DUI in '89 I had to go to AA, I found it helpful, especially in the beginning to get through those first 30 days. I didn't continue beyond the 6 weeks, I stayed sober for 5 years. I've gone to an AA meeting last year, I just wasn't comfortable admitting I was an alcoholic... I am addicted, so I guess I am an alcoholic.
- Antabuse Working / Worked
- I used Antabuse once during my 5 yr sobriety, 90-95. I was only a couple of months sober and went to Mardi Gras to visit family. I was afraid it would be too tempting so I went on it for the vacation, drinking wasn't an option, so I didn't drink, it worked for me, I hate being sick.
- Ativan Considering
- I may ask my Dr for something to help me through detox, I feel emotionally raw already... going through some major changes right now...
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- It has worked in the past, the last time I had the feeling of shakiness inside, like I was uncomfortable in my own skin. Very nervous, couldn't sleep and was dizzy. Very uncomfortable, I'm not looking forward to it as I hear it gets worse each time. Day 3 is bad and sometimes 4...
- Folic Acid Considering
- I think I'll try some supplements, whatever makes the detox process work better. I want to get healthy.
- Outpatient Treatment Program Working / Worked
- Went in '97. I found it educational and helpful. It was very difficult to make all the meetings and classes, this stressed me out a lot, it was very expensive. I dropped out. Stayed sober 5 months. This time I'm seeing a Christian Counselor and will go to some support groups and AA. I wasn't ready last time, this time I think I am.
- Willpower Not Working
- I've tried to control my drinking and my not drinking. I'm going to lean on God this time, because I just can't do it myself.
Close Menopause
I'm 45 and having pre-menopausal symptoms on and off. Mood swings, insomnia, brain fog. My cycle is changing.
Treatments
- Estradiol Not Working
- I tried birth control, I believe it was Estradiol. I had terrible side effects like weight gain, I felt like I was having pms all the time, I don't remember what else, but I quit taking it.
- Evening Primrose Oil Working / Worked
- I think it helps, but I'm not very consistent. I have to take it with enough food or it makes me belch.
Open Parenting Big Kids (5-8)
I have an almost 8 yr old daughter, she's an only child. Sweet, strong willed and a talker : )
Treatments
- Education (School) Working / Worked
- My daughter is in 2nd grade. I also try to read up on parenting.
- Listening Working / Worked
- I do try to tune into my daughter and listen, even when I'm starting to lose patience. It makes her feel more secure when I listen to her.
- Patience Working / Worked
- I try!
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