mountainmom's Journal

Well, Life here is a little better. Today was a good day, and I will willingly take every one of those I can get! Woke up dreaming, such a beautiful dream about the past. More like techncolor TV, I got to relive dating my husband in high school, his marraige proposal, and different happy moments of our life. I absolutely loved that I dreamed this and could remember it upon waking. It was strange that I could remember the houses from back then (25 years or so ago) their exact layout and even the house color! Needless to say I really didn't want to get up, but figured the dream had ended so might as well. Left me in an excellent mood, and gave me a good day. Pain hasn't changed a whole lot but my reaction to it seems to be, it is now 3 days running I have been taking St. John's Wort morning and night and it appears to be atleast bringing good vivid dreams. I also seem to be in a much better mood, which is a blessing. I am also trying DMSO at night on the worst of the aches in my arm and feet. That might be what is helping me to sleep more deeply and to dream, don't know. Since I am getting a little more sleep at night lately, I seem to be able to wake up better in the morning.

I am tired of waiting on my doctor to decide what she want's to try next to help with the pain and depression. That is if she was going to try anything at all not sure. So I also ordered a homopathic vitamin supplement that is supposed to help heal broken, misfiring nerves. Probably won't work, but it was worth it to try it!  My Doctor did not call me back on Friday, but the nurse did to tell me that they haven't gotten the test results back, and to use my break through pain medication more if needed for the additional pain I am having in my feet. Hum, I picked up the report and CD of the test on Thursday afternoon at 2 pm but I didn't tell them that, I am waiting to see how long it takes for them to tell me what the test results were. After all I still don't know how to interpret what the report says, according to it all is normal except for my right leg, some stenosising there. Not sure what that will mean, if anything. I found it interesting that if you scream horrible in pain it get a notation of "patient did not tolerate cuff pressure". Hum, that's one way to put it I guess! I barely "tolerated" the whole damn test!

Anyway, it's been a wonderful day, the best I have had in a over a year, since I had surgery. Maybe it's showing the St. John's Wort and DMSO are working and I will be feeling better soon. One can hope anyway

I have started painting again, right now working on a book I got for Bob Ross painting style, will play around with that for awhile.

The cooler weather sure has felt nice, however the bone ache is back with the rain. I don't mind though, still remember when I was sweating up a storm in the heat. Sad part is I am still sweating up a storm off and on during the day, and wake up with it at night as well. Sigh, can't have everything go away I guess.

So how do you talk to your doctor about your symptoms? Mine are sometimes it does this, sometimes that, sometimes here, sometimes there, gees- it's always sometimes, rarely consistent except for a few exceptions like aching bones, smoldering burning in the bone/muscles, these seem to always be there. OF course she doesn't see this in her 15 minutes every month, so don't know what would be considered important to report in a whole months worth of hurting!

I have figured out I am broken from the top of my head to my toes! Everything inbetween seems to have a problem of one kind or another, so if I can just keep it from getting worse, I think I will get used to it! After all, is evening out by not just being in one place and pretty soon will be normal right?