domesticflowergirl's Journal

   I was a Member sometime back...as well as my little Sister. I have since "tried" to do things on my own w/o the Love,Trust,Caring,Support,Understanding etc from other. I seriously was ( have been comtiplating this off&on past few months ) cosidering taking my own life...for MANY reasons. I made it thru till my Dr.'s appt today tho & he sure helped me ALOT. We upped the Ativan/Lorazapam from .05 to 1mg time released. Then am going OFF the Wellbutrin & taking Paxil. Then...next month will be going from Percocet5"s to 10's. I just turned 57 yrs old afew weeks ago & I just figure that if the rest of my life has to be like this...I truely can NOT see myself continuing. I would MISS my Cat & my Grandchildren...BUT in the Long-run wouldn't they be so much better off w/o me in the picture. MY 5 1/2 yr old Granddaughter ( I spend the weekends there ) said that she has this SAD dream "Every" nite...is where her Mom comes into her room & wakes her up, then tells her that her "GRandma Pat" has Passed-away. I am so hoping toat w/ these new Meds that...I can start feeling better.      Peace, Pat