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About Me
SUICIDALNOMORE
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About Me
Hi, my name is Chris and I'm a SURVIVOR!!! I've "Battled" depression, anxiety and OCD for 17 long years! 15 months ago I also became suicidal and tried to kill myself three times via drug overdose and came close to the "Finishing Line" twice!!! I\'ve been hospitalized for my mental illness and given ECT which is the only thing that pulled me out of "The Darkness" almost 9 months ago now. I have a wonderful wife Nancy, who I don't deserve, who has stuck by me through everything and two fantastic kids Mathew and Elizabeth! I also have nine cats and a dog. Life is good and my new job has been really wonderful!!!
Hi, my name is Chris and I'm a SURVIVOR!!! I've "Battled" depression, anxiety and OCD for 17 long years! 15 months ago I also became suicidal and tried to kill myself three times via drug overdose and came close to the "Finishing Line" twice!!! I\'ve been hospitalized for my mental illness and given ECT which is the only thing that pulled me out of "The Darkness" almost 9 months ago now. I have a wonderful wife Nancy, who I don't deserve, who has stuck by me through everything and two fantastic kids
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Music, Movies, Long drives, Making new friends here on DS, Shooting pool, Playing darts, Getting support from all my friends here on DS(Which I\'ve really needed lately, Thank You!!!), Getting enough sleep, Spending time with my children, Spending time with and loving my wife, Watching episodes of Everybody Loves Raymond on DVD(We have five of the nine seasons), My new job and project at work, Piercings(had my left ear done two months ago), Tattoos(I'm getting a scorpion on my upper left arm), Scorpions in general(My birth sign by the way), Tarantulas, Muscle Cars, Headphones, High Fidelity Audio and many others.
Music, Movies, Long drives, Making new friends here on DS, Shooting pool, Playing darts, Getting support
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thanks sweetie. He got an earlier flight home and he's flying in tonight! yay...although i guess this means I need to shave my legs finally. lol.
Hope you have a wonderful weekend. I know I will.
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Hey thanks Chris, Yes, I was feeling better the next day. Yes, MS is like that. It's a rollercoaster ride with many ups and downs. Thanks for caring. I hope that you and your family are doing well.
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Thank you for commenting on my journal. I'm not going to settle for anyone. I have a whole list of requirements. You have a wonderful, blessed day today. Love, Kelly
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Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI made 3 suicide attempts from Aug/08 to Jan/09. After my 3rd attempt, where I downed 260 extra strength tylenol, my loving wife took me to our local mental hospital's assessment unit. I was "Certified" and admitted for one month. For the 1st two weeks the doctors tried drug changes to get my depression under control to no avail. It was then that ECT was proposed to me. After it was explained to me I gave my consent. 6 treatments were done over the next two weeks. My depression is gone!!!
Treatments
- Electroconvulsive therapy Working / Worked
- As I mentioned above, the ECT treatments really worked to bring me out of my depression. I noticed significant improvements after the first treatment. After the sixth not only did my depression subside, all my suicidal thoughts, anxiety and even my OCD is cured. I suffered no adverse side effects from the treatments. No memory loss, headaches or any other negative physical effects. I had about another 16 treatments as an outpatient and I have not had any for almost 4 months now.
- Lunesta Working / Worked
- Zopiclone is another part of my sleep "Cocktail". When the sleep is good the depression is good.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- This continues to keep me going day to day. I awake each morning excited about the challenges of the day. I feel like I could reach up and grab the moon and pull it to earth. I truly believe that no challenge is to much to take on and that I am strong and capable of doing whatever I put my mind to. It is the greatest feeling in the world and I wouldn't trade my life for anything.
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- I take 300 mg of Seroquel at night as part of my sleep "Cocktail"! It also helps as a mood stabilizer for my depression.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- It goes without saying that I would simply not be here if not for my family. My wife in particular has stood by me through so much and got me the help I so desperately needed. I can't see me living long enough to repay her for all she has done. I think that alot of wives would have given up on me. Not my wonderful Nancy. She truly is an angel that God gave to me. My children and parents have also given their unwavering love and support which continues to keep me strong and my thoughts positive.
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- In conjunction with the ECT, the Zoloft helps to keep the chemical balance of my brain in check.
Close Depression Supporters
I have just recently come out of "The Darkness" after 3 suicide attempts in 6 months thanks to ECT. I have suffered from major depresssion for 17 years. I am now depression, anxiety and OCD free!!!
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
- I am an audiophile and love listening to music. It relaxes me, soothes my soul and takes me away to another place if I'm feeling stressed.
- Patience Working / Worked
- I now have plenty of this since my OCD is gone. I don't let things get me upset as easily as they used to. I take my time and tackle challenges methodically and with determination.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Communicating with other members on DailyStrength has been a wonderful experience.
- Electroconvulsive therapy Working / Worked
- Without question Electro Convulsive Therapy pulled me out of my depression and saved my life. It continues to be an effective treatment for me with very positive results. I am now doing it weekly on an outpatient basis.
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
Along with my depression, I was dignosed with OCD 17 years ago. My biggest compulsion was house cleaning. It could never be clean enough no matter what I did. It became a real problem and interfered with my relationships with my wife and children. Fortunately I have conquered it now thanks to ECT and good medication.
Treatments
Open Tinnitus
I've had tinnitus for a very long time. It is a product of many years of loud music, noise at my work(without proper hearing protection) and also a result of medications I've taken or still take. I have this background buzzing that is always there. It makes it difficult to hear conversations and I have to turn up the volume on everything to compensate. This is very annoying since listening to music is one of my passions. I still love and enjoy it every day.
Open Anxiety
Although I wouldn't classify my axiety as the "Most Severe" it was certainly part of the mix along with my major depression and OCD. A lot of litte things used to make me upset and worried. The bigger things didn't seem to bother me as much. Maybe that's because I knew I couldn't easily change big things. Little things however, were more in my control and easy to obsess and worry about. Anyway, like my other conditions ECT was the cure.
Treatments
- Clonazepam Working / Worked
- The third member of my sleep "Cocktail". It helps with the anxiety also.
- Electroconvulsive therapy Working / Worked
- As with my depression and OCD after six treatments it was gone.
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- I mainly take this for the depression, but I guess it helps the anxiety also.
